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[M7md's POV] 

I couldn't stop smiling, she probably thinks i look like an idiot but i didn't care. 

After we left i headed back home feeling so delighted. I know my gift is unusual but i liked it. Sara came up with the idea, i just agreed.

"Why yin yang?" I remembered her words and i wanted to answer but i couldn't i don't think it's time.

Let me be honest here, being around her gives me a weird happy feeling, butterflies like how i think they call it. I don't know if that's what love is like, but i like it.

I sighed in relief and began humming tunes, preferably i was in a great mood. When i entered my home i greeted mother and uncle while singing 'enti ajmal' by Khalid Abdulrahman as if i was serenading my mother.

My mother was giving me confused looks and so did uncle, "3sa dom hls3ada" said my mother, "Ameen" i replied and kissed them on their foreheads and headed upstairs. 

I passed my cousin noora room first in order to reach my room and i heard her talk, it was one sided so i guess she's on her phone. I know it's wrong but i couldn't help it. I slowly walked towards her room door and listened.

I heard her say "La shd3wa" and "s5eef" and a few shy giggles. 

I know that she's at an age where teenage love is in the air, and i knew the person she was talking to was a guy perhaps her boyfriend. 

To prove my theory, I knocked the door and i heard her whisper "bye b3den aklmk", "tf9'l" she shouted.

I entered and i could see her face had a mixture of nervous, freaked out, panic and i wasn't going to lecture her. 

"Sh5bar bnt 3mi?" I said trying to sound as if i heard nothing. She stuttered while trying to put up a perfect sentence, one i know she's nervous around me and second because of well, the call. 

"El-el7mdella" she replied, i just looked at her for a moment "tbi shy?" She asked, i trusted noora and i didn't like the fact she hid this from me. "B3dain bagolch" i said with a smile and left. I just wanted to give her anticipation and curiosity to what i wanted to say. 

I trust her but not the guy, i don't want her to be in some temporary relationship just to fill a guy's pleasure needs.

I know it isn't my business to interfere in her life, but as a person that has grown up around her i grew being protective over her. A brother like if i may say. 

I'll start with the mysterious boyfriend investigation after my midterms. Right now i don't want anything to ruin a perfectly kept day. 

[Mona's POV]

I wasn't in cine cafe but there were people i knew there, they've seen hessa and m7md and they say that they seemed pretty tight. 

I hate hessa, i swear like she made everyone think she's a perfect angel and got m7md as a ring on her finger.  

"Alo ga3da aklmch" my sister reem waved her hand in front of my face to get my attention and i snapped. 

"Shfeech?" She asked, "wla shy" i said, she threw a pillow at my face and started laughing "ll7en etfakren fe hessa?" She said.

"A5eh fa9'ya?" I replied and took my blackberry and texted Layla she's one of the girl that has seen her. 

Me: "Lulu abech et9eren rb3 m3a hessa"

Layla: "wee g9ori?" 

Me: "bs chthe aby a3rf etha m3a b39' wla la"

Layla: "5ywalon shlch fehm m3a elwyh" 

Me: "bs l2na twa 56ebha mat amda 9arat m3a wa7d thani" 

Layla: "7lfi m56oba kanat?"

Me: "wala mat mn sara6an 3shan che aby a3rf feni f9'ool" 

Layla: "wee w3lya enzain enzain uf" 

Me: "b36ech r8mha" 

Layla: "ok"

So i went over to my contacts and gave her hessa's number. 

[Hessa's POV]

I was just revising what i had studied with m7md and my phone rang.

It was a number i didn't know of, i left it ringing for a while and then i decided to answer. "Alo?" I said, "halla hessa ana layla m3ach fl creative" said this layla girl. 

"Hala layla ee 3rftch" i replied she sits two seats behind me, and i remember she was at cine cafe.

"Bklmch 3n el9f7at flktab shnw ely lazm tn7l? etha knty msh3'oola bklmch 3ala elwhatsapp"

She said.

"La la 3ady w a9'n kl el9f7at lazm tn7l bs hai 7g elfinal lat7aten hm ktab ma ktab" i said.

She laughed and said "okay 3yal shkran w bltwfeeg" we gave our farewell and hung up.

Where the heck did she get my number.. Layla is an active student in class she's very bright, i am surprised she came to me for help.

Come to think of it, i remember she was giving me looks of disgust back in cine cafe when i was with m7md. 

Somethings fishy here.. 

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This chapter is dedicated to @Ray49_ for always making my day without realising it❤️

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I told our driver to step on it.

I have to get there before my mother makes things worst than they already are.

She should've called, she should've waited, she should've not left. 

The peace i built up on the way back home is slowly falling apart. My legs started uncontrollably shaking, i was getting more nervous each second.

I got there and i quickly rushed to the scene. I barged in and she was standing right in the middle of the entrance.

They all now had their attention on me. I was angry, furious, an erupting volcano. I know she was worried, no probably worried sick about me but she could call and text we are no longer in the stone age. Smart phones exist now. 

She turned to me and she herself was angry, but i had far more reasons to be so.

"Wain knty?" She burst, "lat9ar5en 3laiha" yelled abdulrahman and his father shushed him. 

"Fljam3a wl shwar3 z7ma yma" i tried to sound as polite as possible as she's my mother and i wasn't raised to say a comeback in a rude way towards people older than me, however i still had the angry sense in my comeback, i couldn't hide it.

"Jdami" she ordered, i nodded and did proceed to leave but i stopped. 

Something in me stopped wanting to leave. I wanted answers so badly and i wanted them now. 

"L79'a" i said as i stopped and turned to face the once happy family plus my dearest mother. "Laish 5shaitw 3na?" 

"Mw 7ztch hessa" my mother said as she tried lightly pushing me out. 

"La 7zt'ha" said my real father, and i was surprised that he even began with anything.

My mother looked at him terrified of what else he might say and i just patiently waited for him to do so.

"Tben et3rfen laish? Ana bagolch laish" he paused which seemed like he was recollecting memories.

"Lma enty w shaikha kntw thlath ash'hr-" he paused a second " la la 5lna engol 6 ash'hr ll7en fe b6n omkm, abdulrahman twa 4 sneen, omch ma3jbt'ha 3esht elfgr w tbi ryal ynthr 3leeha mn th'hb w almas, mahmha 7b ma 7b-" 

I looked at my mother and she closed her eyes shut and lowered her head, and i just listened and focused on every word he said.

"B3d wladtkm eb thlath ash'hr 6lbt el6lag w galatly el3eesha m3ai matn6ag w galat bta5th w7da mn eltaw2am w bttzwj wa7d 3'ni, bdon ay kalam thani 6lagt'ha w 5thtch mni" he said and sighed knowing how this has hurt him in the past. 

Being a single father to two children a 4 year old and a 3 months baby, being abandoned by a woman he once loved. 

I looked at him waited for more but guess that was all he had to say. 

I looked at my mother and she just stood there and left back to the car.

Ashamed? Embarrassed? Shocked?

I really don't know what is going inside this woman's mind.

I went after her, i don't know what to call it but i think mother daughter instinct. She slammed the door shut and stared at the seat in front of her and said nothing.

Just like i heard my father's side i'm more curious about my mother's side of the story. "Mama no matter what happens i won't leave you" i said softly holding her hands. 

She smiled and looked at me and i see a tear slipping from her eyes. 

"I didn't cheat on your father, i loved your father i was just blinded by greed and luxury" i took my hand away and just stared at her, she sighed and continued.

"this man you currently call your father for the past 18 years proposed to me before your father but i didn't agree even though he was going to shower me with gold and love, when abdulrahman was born i was alright with my living state but when you were born i started re-evaluating my life"

she squeezed her eyes for a minute which seemed to me as if the memories she's bringing back weren't meant to be brought back and i don't blame her.

"We started arguing a lot and i forced myself to hate him. It's a horrible thing to do but i wanted him to leave me but he didn't-" her voice cracked each time she spoke.

"Then i got my divorce when he found out i wanted to marry another man thinking i was cheating and i got to keep you-" i stopped her and said, "why?" She looked at me not confused, 

"the man that you currently call father can't bare a child, that's why i got to keep you i just changed your last name to match with his and buried this secret along with the memories and never spoke of it"

"wdna elbait" i instructed the driver.

I didn't want to know further, i'm currently unsure if because he can't bare a child she took me with her or because she really wanted to keep one of us. 

We kept silence throughout the ride back home. I guess you can say words couldn't describe the situation so silence was our only solution. 

When we reached home, i headed straight to my room and wanted to drown in my sleep. Sleeping has always been my escape from reality. 

Instead i laid there and drowned in my thoughts and the voices that once were whispers are now the loudest i could hear.

A river of questions invaded the peace i built again, what will happen now that i know? What about this man i call my father? What will my mother do? 

All those questions i had served with negative answers. I'm not a negative person but this situation activated that side in me. 

I hugged the mini pillow i had on my bed, and kept saying "no no things will get better" besides my step father is barely home i won't worry about freedom in here. 

I got a text from m7md "shaikha galat omch kanat 3ndhm sh9ar?" I didn't feel like replying, so i left the message be and dozed off. 

Next morning was a study leave so i began revising as i have already studied everything over and over again. 

I checked my phone and decided to stop ignoring m7md, "it was chaos" 

I didn't get a reply he probably was asleep or something.

Hours later he called, my heart was pounding i was nervous, should i pick or should i not. 

I finally answered, i coughed to clear my throat and he started, "9ba7 el5air" his morning voice was a mixture of deep and raspy, i smiled and replied "9ba7 elnoor" 

"Ha sh9ar?" He asked, and i began telling him everything from the time i left university until i was back home with my mother. 

"Kana msalsal" was his reply, i chuckled, we kept silent for a moment and then he asked "tben ndrs m3a b39' wtha tben maryam btyy?" 

I thought of it for a moment "m7md mdri i'll ask mu-" i paused he chuckled, "bs mala da3y" he said. 

I really wanted to go and i know my mother won't mind. he's just a friend and she knows him. 

I just had d3ay in mind and then my problems, "you know what okay ybeli t3'yer jaw" i finally decided.

I'm not sure if this is going to be a mistake or really will be t3'yer jaw, but i just rolled with it.

"Wain tben?" He asked, i hummed in thought and then decided cine cafe that's in Reem centre fl riffa3.

"Bs 3yal tm elsa3a w7da?" he said, i agreed and we hung up. 

I got up to take "permission" from my mother knowing she'll agree. 

I knocked on her door and entered.

"6l3 oboi?" I asked she was surprised that i still call him father, but old habits die hard. 

"Ra7 elsh3'l" she replied, "enzain mama agdr arou7 cine cafe m3a m7md w maryam bndrs" i asked.

"Mnu maryam b3d?" She said with a chuckle, "bnt 5alt m7md m3ana fl m7a9'ra" i said with chuckle as well. 

"Okay bs latt25rain" she said i went and kissed her forehead and checked the time and 2 hours till 1, but time flies by quickly.

I got ready and left to cine cafe. 

I scanned the place he was sitting there at the corner of the place, "ahlan wain maryoum?" I greeted.

"Omha mar9't" he said and i looked at him with a suspicious smile as i sat. He laughed and said, "la wala mar9't" 

We began studying, and as time passed we saw familiar people from our lecture enter the place and giving us stares like we were doing a sin of some sort. 

"5l ywalon w rkzi fldrasa enzain shnw el techniqat mra thanya?" He said trying to get me back to focus. 

we were almost done, "hessa?" M7md began as he placed a small golden box. I moved my eyes from him to the box and back at him, "shnw thee?" I asked with a smile.

"Adri mt25r bs hathy hdyat 3eed meladch" he said and if i wasn't mistaken he was a tad bit shy. 

I did a small yay squeal and thanked him, i don't like to go like 'you shouldn't have' a gift is a gift for a reason and he probably worked hard in choosing it.

"B6leha aby achof wayhch" he said almost begging, i chuckled and opened it. I was surprised at his choice of gift. 

Not sad surprised but really happy surprised, he got me a silver plated charm bracelet, no charm on it.

"No charms?" I said, he began searching in his pocket and took out a small yin yang charm. I was smiling but confused. 

"This will be your first" he said, i gave him the bracelet and he attacked his charm to it. 

"Why yin yang?" I asked as i struggled to wear the bracelet on. 

"Nothing special" he said with a smile and i know it does have a special meaning to him but i just went with the flow. 

I don't know what's up with m7md lately and i won't deny liking the feeling of it. So i sat there and smiled at him as we wrapped up our study session. 

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I left my mothers room and rushed to mine and just shut my door and locked it.

What the hell just happened. 

One day i'm the only child, the other i have a twin sister and a big brother of no one other than abdulrahman and shaikha. I checked the time it was only 6 and i'm thankful that i have already studied. I sat on my bed and anxiety attack kicked in. 

I started breathing heavily because of the anxiety attack, and my heart feels like it's going to burst. 

"Hessa b6li elbab" my mother repeatedly said as she knocked on my door, i just sat there on my bed hugging my knees trying to let what just happen sink into me and quietly sob.

I'm not sure why was i crying, is it because i have been lied to? Or is it because my emotions are in a mess?

I shrugged, and decided i wanted to go to shaikha's, i didn't feel like home. I got up and unlocked my door, my mother looked at my tearful face and pulled me for a hug, i didn't resist nor did i hug back.

"I had a reason to do that mw mne wl6reej" she said after releasing me from her hug. 

I didn't want to reason with her nor talk, my mentality wasn't allowing me to open up a conversation, i just wanted to see my real father and my siblings that i have been forbidden  to see, let alone been told that died in an accident. 

"Mama y9er abat 3nd shaikha?" I said, and just stared at her wanting no further than a yes or no reply. 

She sighed, "3gb elemt7anat"

I stayed silent for a while, "ana darsa w aby abat 3ndha elyoum mmkn" i coldly asked. I know my reaction towards this is a little over-rated but i was furious from her and i believe she noticed it as well.

"Okay ely yry7ch" she said and went back to her room. I closed my door and sighed more of a relief sigh and began packing my bag and called shaikha.

"Shaikha 3ady abat 3ndkm wla emt7anat enty?" I asked

"Hessa shfeech ee 3ady my exams are next month sadly" she repliedz

"Okay i'm coming lain w9lt bagolch klshy" i said and just hung up before she said anything else cause i know she'll shower me with questions. I wasn't ready just yet. V

When i got there, i was greeted by her mother, "shfeech?!" She said and i could hear everyone else stand up and move towards the door.

My eyes stopped flowing by now but only traces of tears can be seen, i scanned the room and i saw shaikha's father, my real father i began crying again and i automatically hurried to him and hugged him. It felt right, i felt safe.

My veil began falling off. when i broke the hug i wiped my tears and was out of words. I looked at my real father and he smiled at me, a heart warming smile. I smiled back.

"Shsalfa?" Asked shaikha with a huge question mark on her face. 

"Shaikha hathy e5tch" he said.

[Shaikha's POV]

"L79'a shnw?" I said, what is going on here. It felt weird.

We all sat down on the sofa's and hessa sat next to me. 

"Mama lazm engloch shy" my father started. I just looked puzzled.

I looked at abdulrahman and he was staring at the floor just listening. 

"Mama hessa e5tch" he paused, "ana oboch w om-" i stopped him  

"Omy ga3da ymk" i didn't want to picture anyone else as my mother. 

My father looked at me because i just stopped him, "asfa" i said while lowering my head.

"Ana barou7 elmaylas byouni ryayel" he said and left following him abdulrahman. I pissed him off i know it. 

I just sat there facing hessa, many thoughts ran in my mind, one of them she's my sister, she has always has been my sister. This is crazy. 

"Yma knty et3rfen?" I asked and she nodded. 'wow' i thought.

"Wai3 enty e5ty" i playfully said and nudged her shoulder. We both laughed. 

After dinner we headed upstairs to sleep and hessa had an exam tomorrow.  

"Hows she like?" i said while lying on my bed next to hessa. I just felt the urge of knowing her, hessa never spoke of her nor do i visit them like she does to us, "Bossy, loving sometimes, cold sometimes, always out" she said then paused and sighed, "i just can't believe she hid this big thing from me"

"Like wise, why hide it, what's wrong with just saying it and i can't believe abdulrahman knew and i.." i said and shrugged.

"The man i call my father isn't even my father" she paused again, "i should of stayed, i should of talked about it further more rather than leave" 

"Yeah you're an idiot when you freak out" i said trying to make this subject cheerful. 

"Thank you for your honesty" she replied with a chuckle and then she slept, but i couldn't. 

[Hessa's Mother POV]

That's what i feared.

That she'll one day find out and leave me. She wouldn't find out if we didn't move back here. 

I knew from the day we left dubai that we'll confront anyone of them and it will get bad. I sighed while lying on my bed alone thinking of all the possible things that will happen.

I brushed those negative thoughts away and all i thought of was getting her back here nothing else. 

[Hessa's POV]

Exam went well, didn't feel like i gave my 100% but i did well. 

Knowing that my driver will be taking me back home made me feel petrified in an anxious way. 

I don't want to go yet i badly want to because i'm curious about this whole situation. Good thing i got study leave tomorrow.  

I sat in the cafeteria alone waiting for the driver to inform me of his arrival and in came m7md. 

I had a happy feeling going inside just seeing him and i smiled, he was with a group of guys who i wasn't familiar with any of them.

He probably excused himself and came to greet me. "Ha sh9ar?" He said as he sat on the sofa i was on.

"Your theory is right. Ana e5t shaikha w abdulrahman" i said somehow shyly because his friends were staring from where they were seated. I don't know it just felt awkward. 

He sighed in a shruggy way, "shfeek?" I asked mockingly.

He chuckled and smiled a dimpled smile "wla shy" and we just stared at each other for a moment which instantly made it even more awkwarder, i could feel my face heating up and from his face expression of mock, i know i blushed.

My phone rang and saved the day, i knew the driver arrived so i excused myself and left. That was the weirdest thing ever, but i am forever thankful to him.

after a long ride back home because of heavy traffic on the highway. I had the chance to clear my mind, organise my thoughts and calm myself down. 

I thought of every possible question i wanted answers for and every possible answer i might get and after a long time reasoning with myself. 

I reached home, i pushed our big house door and focused on nothing but where my mother was. 

She wasn't in her room nor anywhere in this house. 

Where is this woman?

I got a text from shaikha,

"Your mother is here asking for you"

I mentally face palmed myself and left back to shaikha's house.

Chaos is about to begin.

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All this information i got yesterday should wait a while i should focus on my midterms, but then again i have been studying non-stop. 

I laid on my bed with my history book on my face. I kept remembering what m7md has told me and how this may or may not be a life changer. 

I shrugged and got up, I went downstairs for a quick snack.

I opened the fridge and found an ice-cream box, i did my excited quiet dance and took it up with me. 

On my way my father left his room. 

He wore wearing a grey suit and red tie. I was taking few spoons of the chocolate ice-cream so i had the spoon in my mouth and i formed a huge smile and went to hug him. 

"Ahlan blshaikha" he said as he hugged back. "Wain btrou7 hl7za?" I asked still eating the ice-cream. 

"Sh3'l baba" he said as he headed downstairs holding his business bag. 

I sighed and entered my room, same old thing. 

I sat on my bed and kept my history book open and just ate ice-cream.

It has always helped me clear my mind. Yep ice-cream is my meditation.

My mother knocked on my door and entered she had a shower towel on her head, "ha tad--" she stopped and mentally face palmed herself. 

"Btmtnen mn kthr elakl bsch ice-cream" she said leaving my room, i got up and rushed behind her.

"Yma aby aklmch fe mw9'oo3" i said stopping her from leaving and forcing her to sit on my bed.

"shu balach enty" she tried resisting but i was firm in my order. 

"Abdulrahman" i said, just that and i can see her facial expression changing. M7md has instructed me to do that and tell him how was her reaction, he would know and realise that this is enough to reason with his deduction. 

"Never mind" i said with a smile and she looked at me in confusion and took my ice-cream away and left. 

I shrugged and took my phone to call m7md and tell him about what has happened. 

"Y3ni Mabt5len elwa7d ydrs?" He greeted, "Hello to you too i suppose" i replied. "Sh9ar?" He asked.

"She looked shocked and nervous do you think it links?" I asked.

He hummed in thought and then said, "mmkn ykoun rd f3lha mn ay shy thani" he makes sense but what else can possibly be the reason. 

"Wait what if it is" i said and spaced out, if my current father wasn't my father i shouldn't be showing my hair, by hiding this big thing from me my mother is creating a huge sin for me. 

"What if?" He asked, "m7md ana mt7jba, y3ni lw ely al7en asme oboi mw oboi m7rm 3laih ychofni mkshofa, heck i wear tank tops in front of him"

"Confront your mother, this is serious" he said and i could hear his serious tone rise. He's right, this is serious and we hung up.

I was nervous about this, i didn't know how i'll be starting the conversation. I took a deep breath and headed over to my mothers room.

I knocked twice and entered, 

"Mama?" I said, she hummed yeah, as she blow dried her hair. 

I just stood there not knowing how to start, i was mentally starting the conversation but my physical self failed to say anything.

"Ha mama shfech?" She said setting aside the blow dryer. I took a deep breath and finally said, "mama oboi el7ali mw oboi el9ijy 97?"  

"Mynona?" She said with a chuckle.

"Mama ana mw yahl" i replied. 

Her face showed no emotion other than fear and shock. She sighed and tried to say a word but couldn't.

"It's true isn't it?" I said, and she nodded. I was surprised at her reply, the nod is enough to prove m7md's deduction.

"Laish 5shaity 3ni, mama tdren eni mt7jba w tdren may9er ryal 3'reeb echofni mkshofa" i started raising my voice, "are you even my mum?" I said, she got up slapped me. 

I froze, what is it with people and slapping me. I didn't burst in tears like i would but a tear fell out. 

I have never been hit by my mother, ever, this is shocking maybe i deserved it, but again why did i?

"Ee mw oboch ert7ty? bs ana omch w e7trmy nfsch m3ai" she said now yelling at me.

"W abdulrahman?" I said almost whispering in shock, "o5och w shaikha e5tch mn omoch w oboch" 

What.

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I did a little investigation on Abdulrahman for a whole week and got nothing out of it and asking him wasn't an option. 

I left my room for a little snack.

I heard my mother talk, her voice was a bit faint coming from their room, so i stuck my ear on the door to eavesdrop.

"May9er en5sh 3nha lazm et3rf" i heard her say. "La la mw al7en" i heard my father say. 

What are they..

"shtswen?" I jumped and turned around, it was my brother.

I kept my index finger on my lips shushing him up. "Tara 3aib ytsm3on" he said completely inconsiderate about my need of silence. 

I stuck my tongue out for him and headed downstairs, i didn't protest or anything i know he won't rat on me. 

I went in the kitchen and started fixing me peanut butter and banana sandwich. I'm the kind of person that i daydream when i do anything, specially cooking my body just seems to automatically do something and my mind is just out of reality. 

I was thinking about my parents conversation, i'm no detective or anything but i know who has that characteristic and may help me out.   

I took my food up and called hessa, she wasn't who may help me but she can be of an assistance. 

"Hello" she said in a happy tone.

"Ahlan i have updates" i said,

She hummed yeah, "knt ray7a basweli akl-" she giggled, "anyways, i over heard my parents talk about me" i said.

"What kind of conversation?" She asked, "well, my mother was saying something about that i should know shy and my dad disagreed" i replied. 

"That's not a normal thing" she said, we kept silence for a moment and i proposed a thought, "shrych engol 7g m7md he's good fe hl ashya" she didn't reply for a moment and then sighed, "bs our information isn't enough like okay bngola ur brother said this and then a week after your parents said this, it links up somehow but it isn't enough" 

I chuckled, she obviously doesn't know m7md well.

"You have no idea what m7md can do" i said, "what do you mean?" She asked.

"Dude m7md is like sherlock holmes or something he's good at this stuff" i said while chuckling. 

She sighed and said "Okay tomorrow i have my last class with him so i'll talk to him about it."

I know she's hesitating and isn't sure about that, i understood it from her sigh. "You're sure? I can talk to him myself"

"No no i can talk to him it's fine" 

She said and we then hung up. 

[Hessa's POV] 

I have been ignoring m7md at university ever since d3ay passed away, i don't know how i'll be talking to him now.

The next day came and i went to my last lectures before midterms start, and then i headed to the library knowing m7md will be there. He sits in the same table all the time. 

When i got to the library i searched for him and there he was. 

Without any hesitation i went and sat in front of him. 

He was reading a book on law i'm not sure. He lifted an eyebrow and i just sat there feeling awkward. 

This was a mistake i know i shouldn't have done this. I feel weird. 

He looked at me and back into his book. I just smiled trying to ease the tension. I remember when d3ay passed away he was there for me but i pushed him away. 

He kept a serious face and didn't react to my smile. This is going to be a hard task. He continued reading his book. I could feel people's eyes on us. 

"Hey" i said trying to get his attention, but failed miserably. I shrugged knowing that he's giving me the silent treatment. 

"Ignore me as long as you want but i-" i paused as he lifted his eye to meet mine but still held a serious face. I always found that a very attractive feature in him. 

"I need your help" i said and when i said it he gave me a confused look it almost feels like disgust. 

I realised that what i said felt like 'wgt elm9al7 tjek elklab mshtaga' and i felt embarrassed. 

I lowered my head, and felt my face heat up. He chuckled and said "amri"

I lifted my head and smiled.

"Tathkr mn sna youm 5alaf 3ziz?" 

He hummed yeah and just locked his eyes with mine and completely focusing on every word i say. 

"Well on our birthday last week her brother just wished me a happy birthday and i haven't told him when it is, and yesterday she over heard her parents talk about how it is about time they told her something" i told him and he for a moment spaced out and then sighed. 

"Shnw tbon mni bl9'b6?" He questioned, i looked at him in confusion and lifted an eye brow. He isn't serious right, i thought.

"Rayk flmw9'oo3 ya79'i" i said trying to sound humorous and loosen the tensed environment. He chuckled and kept silence for a while. 

He shut his book and set it aside, "tathkren lma geltlch gari 3n shy chthe?" I nodded. 

"Fe 89'ya mn chm sna azwaj byt6lgon w e5tlfw 3n mn ely byrbi taw2am fa galaw kl wa7d ya5th wa7d shay chthe" he said. 

"Are u saying it applies on me and shaikha?" I asked. 

"30%" he said. 

This was shocking but it couldn't happen, that isn't possible.

"Bs shloun ana esm el3ayla 3'air it doesn't make sense" i said.

"It does if your mother married a man before you got your passport, CPR and so on" he said.

"Is it even legal?" I said.

"No but there is also another possibility that she changed your last name and that has happened many times" he said.

I giggled and said "okay okay your deduction makes sense now you're like conan" he just chuckled and bowed his head. 

If what he's saying is possible, or is what is actually happening then i should crave it out of my mother whether she liked it or not. 

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I woke up. Well mentally i did, but physically i was idle. I suppose that i no longer laid on the ground anymore. I felt a movement in the place i was kept in. 

I slightly moved but winced at the throbbing pain i had on my head which might have been caused after my impact to the ground.

I felt a soft hand on my shoulder and from the scent i knew it was my mother, but she said nothing. 

I slowly tried to open my eyes, so i could know where i was, but i was blinded by the spotlight above me. 

I winced once to show my dis-comfort the light caused, and the soft hands where no longer at spot. 

Slowly the light dimmed down making them as if they were there but hardly bright. 

I finally was able to open my eyes but the throbbing headache i had hasn't become any better. 

I slowly scanned the room and if my memory doesn't fail me it was a hospital room.

I tried to get up but felt nauseous and just slowly rested my head back to where it last was. "Mama latt7rkain goleeli shnw tben" 

I'm completely aware i was at the hospital as i felt the needle in my hand attached to the feeder or in arabic 'm3'thy'

 Hospital..

That's where i last saw d3ay. That's where he died. I felt a lump come up my throat but i swallowed it. I closed my eyes i just wanted to rest. 

He's in a better place now. 

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A month past since d3ay passed away. I have been distant from everyone. Shaikha, m7md, sara, 9gr, my mum. Everyone. 

All i focused on was my studies and my duties towards God. Nothing matters. I felt shallow and empty.

I never thought that loving a person would cause so much pain like this. 

My mother considered a therapist she assumed i was depressed.

So if i was, it doesn't matter.

Even if i was healed and i moved on i don't think i can love again. 

Two weeks left till midterm so all i did was study the same pages over and over again. 

I heard a knock on my door which interrupted the whispering voices in my mind. "Mama shaikha hne" she said.

I gave a confused look in my face and thought 'why the hell is she here'

I got up to greet her but she entered instead, Barged in to be exact. 

"There's a door for a reason" i coldly said. She looked at me and i could clearly see that she isn't here for a fun time. 

I stood in my place next to my bed and she approached me. I calmly breathed to avoid feeling or looking nervous. She stood before me for a moment and then slapped me. 

She slapped me and showed no emotion, i froze in my place for a while and i didn't let a tear out. 

[Shaikha's POV]

Gosh did that feel good. She deserved every bit of that slap.

She looked at me in complete shock and i just mockingly chuckled.

"Leave" she hissed quietly.

"No i came here for a reason and i'm leaving when i'm done" i said.

She slowly sat back on her bed but i just stood there. "What the heck happened to you" i started. 

"My personal issues is non of your business thankyou" she said and oh did i have the urge of slapping her one more time, but i held my anger. 

"This is your life now?" I said and she just shrugged at me. 

"What you're doing to yourself is wrong. heck hessa it's been a month mb zain chthe what's the point of distancing yourself from everyone else because one human being passed away" i said knowing how much my words may hurt her. 

"He may be one person but-" i cutted her "One person after another dies every day hessa. When 3ziz left i wasn't like that because i know he wants me to be happy whether he's with us or not" 

i know she's completely blank about what 3ziz was to me and only knows a few things. 

"3ziz wasn't your fiancé this is completely different" she said, thinking that just because he's titled as fiancé he's suddenly the world. 

"Gosh hessa you're so thick" i said and she looked at me in total shock by my words and just before she said a word i started again. 

"Fiancé or not, life still goes on you aren't dead. al7en et9len w tgrain 8r2an laish? I'm not telling you this isn't good this is freakin amazing but you're blinded by a love that no longer exists." 

I paused to sigh "i was told when 3ziz died that things happen for a reason, i wasn't sure what sort of reason is it and i still don't, but this is like a puzzle that is missing a whole bunch of pieces, those pieces that are scattered all over the path you walk on in your own life"

i know i sounded deep and i always do when i give advices, i can see that hessa's hard head was starting to loosen up a bit. 

"Maybe d3ay isn't the one you were meant to live your whole life with" i said as i sat next to her.

"Then why did i get engaged? Why did i love him?" She murmured.

"This is all a plan god wrote for your life, and maybe it happened so we'd have this conversation right now" i said and she hugged me and i could hear her weep, so i hugged her back.

After a long chat i had with her about everything she's missing which seemed like forever i went back home. I know i was going to be lectured because i came home late.

I slowly opened my house door fully aware what i'll be getting behind it. "Chm elsa3a?" Said my father when he saw me.

"Asfa adri mt25ra bs knt asalf m3a 7essa w mantbht" i said and then i got a whole long lecture how this isn't an excuse for being late and how i should be more responsible. 

I headed upstairs, so i could change and sleep, nothing new. 

I checked the time and saw the date it was "27-10" i quietly squealed my birthday is 2 hours away i was going to become 18. 

I stayed up waiting till it turned twelve, i know it sounds tacky but i just love seeing whose going to be the first, even though i was really tired. I got plenty of happy birthday's and as usual sara is the first. 

Next morning, i felt pretty excited about today. After doing all the morning normal doings i headed downstairs. 

"Kl3am wnty b5air bnty eljmela" said my mother, i went and gave her a hug. 

"Shraych arygch?" She said and that's one of the reason i love birthday mornings.

My phone rang and it was hessa i remembered that she had the same birthday as i. 

I answered, "ahlaan bl legal" i said and my mum confusingly smiled. 

Hessa laughed "Halla fech happy birthday" she said and i said "happy birthday to you too"

I sat and chatted, my mum gave me the look and i excused myself from hessa telling her i have a special birthday breakfast with my mother and i hung up. 

"7lfai bs" said my mother and just giggled and went to change. 

We went to fudds, one of our favourite breakfast spot. After ordering and settling down. My mother asked "hessa etshabhch w nfs 3eed meladch?" 

I nodded and replied "ana b3d est3'rbt awal madrait bs et3rfen mna 40 shbeh" 

She hummed yeah and said nothing. 

After our breakfast arrived and after i talked about hessa a bit more we left and went back home. 

"Yal5wana" yelled my brother playfully. I stuck my tongue out for him and giggled. 

"Mabasbch m3a hl wayh" he said playfully, "shwy shwy 3ala b39'" said my mother.

"Wain oboi?" I asked, "6l3 mn shwy" replied abdulrahman as he got up from having his breakfast alone. 

"Ee 97 goli 7g hessa happy birthday" he said i looked at him with a raised eye brow. "How did u know it's her birthday?" I asked.

He hesitated with his words and seemed more like nervous. "Umm e-ehya galatly la" he said.  

Mshyt'ha. yeah she probably told him, i thought but i still called her and told her about it. 

"I don't remember telling him my birthday, he may have my number but we don't speak tara bs che r8ma mzhrya 3ndy" she said 

I hummed a thought hum, "he did seem nervous about it, it's as if it slipped out of him i don't know" i said. 

"Where is he now?" She asked, "i don't know he got all weird and left.

"Oh" she said, we kept silent "i'll check this out i'll watch him he knows something that i don't and i hate feeling naive" i said. 

We then hung up because my dad was calling for me. 

I went downstairs and the whole household was there, they all yelled "Suprise!" And i had the surprised birthday girl face and they started singing happy birthday, we ate cake and well i opened presents. 

But i kept my eyes locked on Abdulrahman. he was hiding something.

I'm getting to the bottom of this. 

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I'd like to dedicate this chapter to @Ray49_ and @Nouf201 and a special thank you to everyone that is supporting me! I love you all!

I hope you like this!

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Visions of yesterday's events disturbed my morning. I looked at the time it was 11, and i didn't have a class today. 

I got a text from shaikha, saying that she'll be leaving for university next week, i texted back "uff wa5eran" 

She was online, so she replied, "can you come over now? i have something exciting to tell you" It took me a minute to think and i agreed to come.

I got up and did my morning duties as usual and headed downstairs for breakfast, surprisingly mum was there.

"Elwalda hnee" i said in a happy surprised tone, she kept down her coffee from one hand and newspaper from another and smiled.

I went and kissed her forehead and sat next to her to have breakfast. 

"Yma barou7 bait shaikha al7en" i said while stuffing my mouth with bread and cheese. 

She looked at me once and folded her newspaper, "al7en?" She said with one eyebrow raised.

I hummed yeah and proceeded with eating. She kept quiet which is sometimes a sign of yes but in my case it sounds as a no. 

"Yma barou7 al7en bard 3gb el3'da okay?" I asked again while having a puppy dog face of begging, she sighed and said yes. 

I squealed and kissed her forehead and headed upstairs to get ready.

Let me give you a quick fact what i do when going to shaikha's house.

I don't change my shirt which is pajamas, all i do is change my pants to either black genies or black leggings i never wear anything colourful or light as pants. 

I wore abaya over my outfit and swirled my veil over my head. Took a look at myself in the mirror, took my stuffs and left. 

When i got to her house, i was greeted by her mother that i grew found of throughout my senior year.

I and shaikha's family are now best buddies. Well not 'best' but we're pretty tight now. 

"9ba7 el5air nawrty baitna" she said as we greeted each other with 2 cheek kisses. 

"Wainhi shaikha?" I asked as i inhaled the smell of their morning atmosphere that i have always admired. 

"Shaikha fe 3'rft'ha rou7elha banadekm lain 76aina el3'da" she said, i nodded and headed to her room. 

I wouldn't be meeting Abdulrahman at this time on my way nor her father so i took off my veil. 

I barged into her "ahlaan" i said.

"Way3a fe e5tra3 esma a6g elbab" she said as she was brushing her hair. "Good morning to you too" i sarcastically replied as i sat on her bed. 

She kept the brush down made her hair up in a pony tail and fluffed it. 

"Enzain sm3y" she started as she sat before me. I hummed yeah?

"My mums pregnant." She said and excitement filled her face.

"7lfaii" i was surprised and happy.

She did a small squeal and nodded.

"Anasa bt9eren e5t kbera! ay shahar?" I said all at once.

"I think 3rd madri she was suspicious but she just confirmed yesterday." She said.

"Mabroook elwalda" i congratulated then we sat and chatted about my university life yesterday. 

"79'ch u'll stay in a dorm room and everything" i said.

"Not now i think last year or 2 years gbl ma i finish i think eljam3a hne flbahrain i'll be here mostly" 

She said not looking as happy as she should be.

"A5eh bchof wayhch wayd y3ni" 

I said mockingly.

"Jokes on you yal8rda we have the same face" she replied and well she '89fat eljabha' as they locally say. 

Time passes by quick when you're having fun, we heard a knock on the door, "gada" said a maid. 

I looked at the time, and it was time for both Abdulrahman and her father to arrive, dammit. 

I went downstairs and wore my abaya but left it unbuttoned and kept my veil around my neck, just incase.

I sat next to shaikha and she sat next to her mum who sat in her father's usual place. 

"Mabrook 5alty" i said as i began eating. 

"Galatlach 3yal" she chuckled and added "allah ybark feech 7beebty" 

We kept silent as we were stuffing ourselves with vegetable and sausages macroni.

"Shloun omch?" Her mother asked and it felt awkward, i actually was going to chock. "El7mdella" i stuttered while saying that. 

I heard shaikha giggle at my reaction and her brother entered. 

I gasped and quickly covered my hair, which is of no use because shaikha not only has the same looks but also the same hair as i. 

"Oh hessa 3ndna" he said as he came towards us and drank shaikha's glass of water until it was empty. 

Her face screamed 'what the hell'

I couldn't contain my laughter so i burst it out. "Mama chofee" shaikha said and her mother was already laughing. 

He kept down her glass and went to kiss his mother's forehead.

"Mabtt3'da?"asked his mother. 

"Mbala bs mw al7en" he smiled and headed upstairs.  

"Km 3mra al7en?" I asked 

"It doesn't matter he won't live long anyways" she sarcastically said as if she was planning his death. 

 

I placed my hand on her shoulder and said "c'mon lets go to your room and plan his death" 

Her mother giggled and said "aham shay etn9'fon wrakm" we laughed and headed upstairs.

"Your mum is so cute" i said

"I know i know" she replied.

We sat and chatted again until it was time for me to leave. 

When i got home i remembered that i haven't checked my phone, so i did and i had a msg from fa6ma.

'CALL ME ASAP!'

That's weird.

I entered my house and my mum rushed to me and hugged me tight.

"Shsalfa?" I asked, this was confusing what's wrong with the world. 

"Madraity?" She asked worried and shocked. I raised an eye brow and shook my head.

"Mama d3ay 36ach 3mra" she said.

That was the last thing i remember before collapsing to the ground.

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