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I woke up. Well mentally i did, but physically i was idle. I suppose that i no longer laid on the ground anymore. I felt a movement in the place i was kept in. 

I slightly moved but winced at the throbbing pain i had on my head which might have been caused after my impact to the ground.

I felt a soft hand on my shoulder and from the scent i knew it was my mother, but she said nothing. 

I slowly tried to open my eyes, so i could know where i was, but i was blinded by the spotlight above me. 

I winced once to show my dis-comfort the light caused, and the soft hands where no longer at spot. 

Slowly the light dimmed down making them as if they were there but hardly bright. 

I finally was able to open my eyes but the throbbing headache i had hasn't become any better. 

I slowly scanned the room and if my memory doesn't fail me it was a hospital room.

I tried to get up but felt nauseous and just slowly rested my head back to where it last was. "Mama latt7rkain goleeli shnw tben" 

I'm completely aware i was at the hospital as i felt the needle in my hand attached to the feeder or in arabic 'm3'thy'

 Hospital..

That's where i last saw d3ay. That's where he died. I felt a lump come up my throat but i swallowed it. I closed my eyes i just wanted to rest. 

He's in a better place now. 

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A month past since d3ay passed away. I have been distant from everyone. Shaikha, m7md, sara, 9gr, my mum. Everyone. 

All i focused on was my studies and my duties towards God. Nothing matters. I felt shallow and empty.

I never thought that loving a person would cause so much pain like this. 

My mother considered a therapist she assumed i was depressed.

So if i was, it doesn't matter.

Even if i was healed and i moved on i don't think i can love again. 

Two weeks left till midterm so all i did was study the same pages over and over again. 

I heard a knock on my door which interrupted the whispering voices in my mind. "Mama shaikha hne" she said.

I gave a confused look in my face and thought 'why the hell is she here'

I got up to greet her but she entered instead, Barged in to be exact. 

"There's a door for a reason" i coldly said. She looked at me and i could clearly see that she isn't here for a fun time. 

I stood in my place next to my bed and she approached me. I calmly breathed to avoid feeling or looking nervous. She stood before me for a moment and then slapped me. 

She slapped me and showed no emotion, i froze in my place for a while and i didn't let a tear out. 

[Shaikha's POV]

Gosh did that feel good. She deserved every bit of that slap.

She looked at me in complete shock and i just mockingly chuckled.

"Leave" she hissed quietly.

"No i came here for a reason and i'm leaving when i'm done" i said.

She slowly sat back on her bed but i just stood there. "What the heck happened to you" i started. 

"My personal issues is non of your business thankyou" she said and oh did i have the urge of slapping her one more time, but i held my anger. 

"This is your life now?" I said and she just shrugged at me. 

"What you're doing to yourself is wrong. heck hessa it's been a month mb zain chthe what's the point of distancing yourself from everyone else because one human being passed away" i said knowing how much my words may hurt her. 

"He may be one person but-" i cutted her "One person after another dies every day hessa. When 3ziz left i wasn't like that because i know he wants me to be happy whether he's with us or not" 

i know she's completely blank about what 3ziz was to me and only knows a few things. 

"3ziz wasn't your fiancé this is completely different" she said, thinking that just because he's titled as fiancé he's suddenly the world. 

"Gosh hessa you're so thick" i said and she looked at me in total shock by my words and just before she said a word i started again. 

"Fiancé or not, life still goes on you aren't dead. al7en et9len w tgrain 8r2an laish? I'm not telling you this isn't good this is freakin amazing but you're blinded by a love that no longer exists." 

I paused to sigh "i was told when 3ziz died that things happen for a reason, i wasn't sure what sort of reason is it and i still don't, but this is like a puzzle that is missing a whole bunch of pieces, those pieces that are scattered all over the path you walk on in your own life"

i know i sounded deep and i always do when i give advices, i can see that hessa's hard head was starting to loosen up a bit. 

"Maybe d3ay isn't the one you were meant to live your whole life with" i said as i sat next to her.

"Then why did i get engaged? Why did i love him?" She murmured.

"This is all a plan god wrote for your life, and maybe it happened so we'd have this conversation right now" i said and she hugged me and i could hear her weep, so i hugged her back.

After a long chat i had with her about everything she's missing which seemed like forever i went back home. I know i was going to be lectured because i came home late.

I slowly opened my house door fully aware what i'll be getting behind it. "Chm elsa3a?" Said my father when he saw me.

"Asfa adri mt25ra bs knt asalf m3a 7essa w mantbht" i said and then i got a whole long lecture how this isn't an excuse for being late and how i should be more responsible. 

I headed upstairs, so i could change and sleep, nothing new. 

I checked the time and saw the date it was "27-10" i quietly squealed my birthday is 2 hours away i was going to become 18. 

I stayed up waiting till it turned twelve, i know it sounds tacky but i just love seeing whose going to be the first, even though i was really tired. I got plenty of happy birthday's and as usual sara is the first. 

Next morning, i felt pretty excited about today. After doing all the morning normal doings i headed downstairs. 

"Kl3am wnty b5air bnty eljmela" said my mother, i went and gave her a hug. 

"Shraych arygch?" She said and that's one of the reason i love birthday mornings.

My phone rang and it was hessa i remembered that she had the same birthday as i. 

I answered, "ahlaan bl legal" i said and my mum confusingly smiled. 

Hessa laughed "Halla fech happy birthday" she said and i said "happy birthday to you too"

I sat and chatted, my mum gave me the look and i excused myself from hessa telling her i have a special birthday breakfast with my mother and i hung up. 

"7lfai bs" said my mother and just giggled and went to change. 

We went to fudds, one of our favourite breakfast spot. After ordering and settling down. My mother asked "hessa etshabhch w nfs 3eed meladch?" 

I nodded and replied "ana b3d est3'rbt awal madrait bs et3rfen mna 40 shbeh" 

She hummed yeah and said nothing. 

After our breakfast arrived and after i talked about hessa a bit more we left and went back home. 

"Yal5wana" yelled my brother playfully. I stuck my tongue out for him and giggled. 

"Mabasbch m3a hl wayh" he said playfully, "shwy shwy 3ala b39'" said my mother.

"Wain oboi?" I asked, "6l3 mn shwy" replied abdulrahman as he got up from having his breakfast alone. 

"Ee 97 goli 7g hessa happy birthday" he said i looked at him with a raised eye brow. "How did u know it's her birthday?" I asked.

He hesitated with his words and seemed more like nervous. "Umm e-ehya galatly la" he said.  

Mshyt'ha. yeah she probably told him, i thought but i still called her and told her about it. 

"I don't remember telling him my birthday, he may have my number but we don't speak tara bs che r8ma mzhrya 3ndy" she said 

I hummed a thought hum, "he did seem nervous about it, it's as if it slipped out of him i don't know" i said. 

"Where is he now?" She asked, "i don't know he got all weird and left.

"Oh" she said, we kept silent "i'll check this out i'll watch him he knows something that i don't and i hate feeling naive" i said. 

We then hung up because my dad was calling for me. 

I went downstairs and the whole household was there, they all yelled "Suprise!" And i had the surprised birthday girl face and they started singing happy birthday, we ate cake and well i opened presents. 

But i kept my eyes locked on Abdulrahman. he was hiding something.

I'm getting to the bottom of this. 

@TheBlxg_

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