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This chapter is dedicated to @Ray49_ for always making my day without realising it❤️

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I told our driver to step on it.

I have to get there before my mother makes things worst than they already are.

She should've called, she should've waited, she should've not left. 

The peace i built up on the way back home is slowly falling apart. My legs started uncontrollably shaking, i was getting more nervous each second.

I got there and i quickly rushed to the scene. I barged in and she was standing right in the middle of the entrance.

They all now had their attention on me. I was angry, furious, an erupting volcano. I know she was worried, no probably worried sick about me but she could call and text we are no longer in the stone age. Smart phones exist now. 

She turned to me and she herself was angry, but i had far more reasons to be so.

"Wain knty?" She burst, "lat9ar5en 3laiha" yelled abdulrahman and his father shushed him. 

"Fljam3a wl shwar3 z7ma yma" i tried to sound as polite as possible as she's my mother and i wasn't raised to say a comeback in a rude way towards people older than me, however i still had the angry sense in my comeback, i couldn't hide it.

"Jdami" she ordered, i nodded and did proceed to leave but i stopped. 

Something in me stopped wanting to leave. I wanted answers so badly and i wanted them now. 

"L79'a" i said as i stopped and turned to face the once happy family plus my dearest mother. "Laish 5shaitw 3na?" 

"Mw 7ztch hessa" my mother said as she tried lightly pushing me out. 

"La 7zt'ha" said my real father, and i was surprised that he even began with anything.

My mother looked at him terrified of what else he might say and i just patiently waited for him to do so.

"Tben et3rfen laish? Ana bagolch laish" he paused which seemed like he was recollecting memories.

"Lma enty w shaikha kntw thlath ash'hr-" he paused a second " la la 5lna engol 6 ash'hr ll7en fe b6n omkm, abdulrahman twa 4 sneen, omch ma3jbt'ha 3esht elfgr w tbi ryal ynthr 3leeha mn th'hb w almas, mahmha 7b ma 7b-" 

I looked at my mother and she closed her eyes shut and lowered her head, and i just listened and focused on every word he said.

"B3d wladtkm eb thlath ash'hr 6lbt el6lag w galatly el3eesha m3ai matn6ag w galat bta5th w7da mn eltaw2am w bttzwj wa7d 3'ni, bdon ay kalam thani 6lagt'ha w 5thtch mni" he said and sighed knowing how this has hurt him in the past. 

Being a single father to two children a 4 year old and a 3 months baby, being abandoned by a woman he once loved. 

I looked at him waited for more but guess that was all he had to say. 

I looked at my mother and she just stood there and left back to the car.

Ashamed? Embarrassed? Shocked?

I really don't know what is going inside this woman's mind.

I went after her, i don't know what to call it but i think mother daughter instinct. She slammed the door shut and stared at the seat in front of her and said nothing.

Just like i heard my father's side i'm more curious about my mother's side of the story. "Mama no matter what happens i won't leave you" i said softly holding her hands. 

She smiled and looked at me and i see a tear slipping from her eyes. 

"I didn't cheat on your father, i loved your father i was just blinded by greed and luxury" i took my hand away and just stared at her, she sighed and continued.

"this man you currently call your father for the past 18 years proposed to me before your father but i didn't agree even though he was going to shower me with gold and love, when abdulrahman was born i was alright with my living state but when you were born i started re-evaluating my life"

she squeezed her eyes for a minute which seemed to me as if the memories she's bringing back weren't meant to be brought back and i don't blame her.

"We started arguing a lot and i forced myself to hate him. It's a horrible thing to do but i wanted him to leave me but he didn't-" her voice cracked each time she spoke.

"Then i got my divorce when he found out i wanted to marry another man thinking i was cheating and i got to keep you-" i stopped her and said, "why?" She looked at me not confused, 

"the man that you currently call father can't bare a child, that's why i got to keep you i just changed your last name to match with his and buried this secret along with the memories and never spoke of it"

"wdna elbait" i instructed the driver.

I didn't want to know further, i'm currently unsure if because he can't bare a child she took me with her or because she really wanted to keep one of us. 

We kept silence throughout the ride back home. I guess you can say words couldn't describe the situation so silence was our only solution. 

When we reached home, i headed straight to my room and wanted to drown in my sleep. Sleeping has always been my escape from reality. 

Instead i laid there and drowned in my thoughts and the voices that once were whispers are now the loudest i could hear.

A river of questions invaded the peace i built again, what will happen now that i know? What about this man i call my father? What will my mother do? 

All those questions i had served with negative answers. I'm not a negative person but this situation activated that side in me. 

I hugged the mini pillow i had on my bed, and kept saying "no no things will get better" besides my step father is barely home i won't worry about freedom in here. 

I got a text from m7md "shaikha galat omch kanat 3ndhm sh9ar?" I didn't feel like replying, so i left the message be and dozed off. 

Next morning was a study leave so i began revising as i have already studied everything over and over again. 

I checked my phone and decided to stop ignoring m7md, "it was chaos" 

I didn't get a reply he probably was asleep or something.

Hours later he called, my heart was pounding i was nervous, should i pick or should i not. 

I finally answered, i coughed to clear my throat and he started, "9ba7 el5air" his morning voice was a mixture of deep and raspy, i smiled and replied "9ba7 elnoor" 

"Ha sh9ar?" He asked, and i began telling him everything from the time i left university until i was back home with my mother. 

"Kana msalsal" was his reply, i chuckled, we kept silent for a moment and then he asked "tben ndrs m3a b39' wtha tben maryam btyy?" 

I thought of it for a moment "m7md mdri i'll ask mu-" i paused he chuckled, "bs mala da3y" he said. 

I really wanted to go and i know my mother won't mind. he's just a friend and she knows him. 

I just had d3ay in mind and then my problems, "you know what okay ybeli t3'yer jaw" i finally decided.

I'm not sure if this is going to be a mistake or really will be t3'yer jaw, but i just rolled with it.

"Wain tben?" He asked, i hummed in thought and then decided cine cafe that's in Reem centre fl riffa3.

"Bs 3yal tm elsa3a w7da?" he said, i agreed and we hung up. 

I got up to take "permission" from my mother knowing she'll agree. 

I knocked on her door and entered.

"6l3 oboi?" I asked she was surprised that i still call him father, but old habits die hard. 

"Ra7 elsh3'l" she replied, "enzain mama agdr arou7 cine cafe m3a m7md w maryam bndrs" i asked.

"Mnu maryam b3d?" She said with a chuckle, "bnt 5alt m7md m3ana fl m7a9'ra" i said with chuckle as well. 

"Okay bs latt25rain" she said i went and kissed her forehead and checked the time and 2 hours till 1, but time flies by quickly.

I got ready and left to cine cafe. 

I scanned the place he was sitting there at the corner of the place, "ahlan wain maryoum?" I greeted.

"Omha mar9't" he said and i looked at him with a suspicious smile as i sat. He laughed and said, "la wala mar9't" 

We began studying, and as time passed we saw familiar people from our lecture enter the place and giving us stares like we were doing a sin of some sort. 

"5l ywalon w rkzi fldrasa enzain shnw el techniqat mra thanya?" He said trying to get me back to focus. 

we were almost done, "hessa?" M7md began as he placed a small golden box. I moved my eyes from him to the box and back at him, "shnw thee?" I asked with a smile.

"Adri mt25r bs hathy hdyat 3eed meladch" he said and if i wasn't mistaken he was a tad bit shy. 

I did a small yay squeal and thanked him, i don't like to go like 'you shouldn't have' a gift is a gift for a reason and he probably worked hard in choosing it.

"B6leha aby achof wayhch" he said almost begging, i chuckled and opened it. I was surprised at his choice of gift. 

Not sad surprised but really happy surprised, he got me a silver plated charm bracelet, no charm on it.

"No charms?" I said, he began searching in his pocket and took out a small yin yang charm. I was smiling but confused. 

"This will be your first" he said, i gave him the bracelet and he attacked his charm to it. 

"Why yin yang?" I asked as i struggled to wear the bracelet on. 

"Nothing special" he said with a smile and i know it does have a special meaning to him but i just went with the flow. 

I don't know what's up with m7md lately and i won't deny liking the feeling of it. So i sat there and smiled at him as we wrapped up our study session. 

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