The Double
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Thursday, January 30, 2014
35 -The End-
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This month was the busiest.
I tried my best to balance preparation of my finals and my mlcha.
M7md and i spent our weekends and some weekdays doing our project in my house.
He was coming today as well for the final finishing touches for the project.
I sat on my computer typing down our research over msj el5mees and our steps in doing it all that was left is one last picture and the epilogue.
"Hessa m7md w9l!" yelled my mother from behind the door.
"Okay!" I yelled back.
I got up, i looked at myself before i left, and covered myself and headed downstairs.
"Ahlan" i said entering our maylas.
He was sitting on one of the sofas and using his phone. When i entered grasping his attention he had a smirk which gave me goosebumps for some reason.
"Halla" he said with a soft chuckle, standing up and still holding his smirk.
We had an eye contact for a moment, it always happens when he visits. It's like this is the first time he sees me and i always liked it.
I sat but he stood and began searching in his thoub pocket.
I looked at him confusingly and he took out a box, similar to the one he gave me at cine cafe.
"Ooo a gift for me" i said with excitement. He sat next to waiting for me to open the box. I did and it was another charm for the bracelet he gave me. It was a mini msjd el5mees charm, i found it cute.
He pulled his hand out "36eni ydch" he instructed and i did. I never take off the bracelet unless I'm showering.
Some people give diamond rings, necklaces plenty of jewellery, but m7md gives me charms with meaning.
I understood by this act, he's trying to keep a memory. When time passes by and after this bracelet is full of charms, we'll look back to it and remember every moments we had together.
He doesn't shower me with expensive shit and brands, and i like it. He's modest and simple in his words and everything.
This man got me with his charms and i ain't ranting about it.
He finished attaching the charm to my bracelet and just had eye contact, which is now a habit we had every time we went silent.
"Magelteli chm tben mhar?" He asked still holding his oscar winning smile.
I haven't thought of it, so i did a 'i'm thinking' pose and hummed i thought. "Million" i mockingly said, i wasn't really going to ask for that much but i wanted to see his reaction.
He smiled and showed no shocked or freaked out reaction which surprised me. I looked at him in confusion blowing off my plan of seeing his reaction.
"What?" I asked, "nothing.." He said warmly smiling "..7a9'r, million? 9ar"
I was like what? He's serious.
"L79'a l79'a mn 9jk?" I asked, he nodded seriously and i was the one shocked.
"No wait at3'shmr that's alot" i said, "l3lmch lw shkthr t6lben mafe floos etyy b8emtch 3ndy" he said shutting me up. He literally shut me up.
I was speechless, that almost had me in tears. It was the cutest thing anyone has ever said to me.
I looked at him having a huge toothy smile. My face heated up and i know i blushed vigorously.
He laughed, "chofy chm tben mhr w goleeli" i just nodded.
"Enzain elproject mabe5l9 bro7a" i said trying to change this face heating subject.
We got up and started adding the last few touches which was adding sand and fixing any error paint job.
At the end, i took a picture of our model and posted it on Instagram.
We had few drops of paint in our hand, and thankfully none on our clothes.
We had lunch together and then he left. I headed upstairs to get clean, and got a call from shaikha.
"Hi" i greeted with excitement.
"Mabt9dgeen!" She greeted me back.
"Bsmallah shfech?" I asked.
"9gr just confessed that he loved me" she began.
"Wait what? 9gr?!" I said in total shock.
"Eee knt m3a abdulrahman and he texted me saying he wanted to tell me something important i was like alright what is it he began hesitating and then we argued, you know because of his usual horrible temper and then he went like yal kalba a7bch i'm like what" she said in a quiet tone so no one could over hear her.
I sat on my bed trying to recollect what i was just told. This is surprising. weird and surprising.
"What was your reaction?" I asked.
"I laughed i thought he was joking but he wasn't" she said.
I laughed and said , "he confessed and you laughed"
"Ylklba i thought he was joking what do i do" she said obviously panicking.
"What do u want to do?" I said like i was some therapist.
"I like him bs madri mabi i get involved fe hl ashya u know what i mean?" She said and i know how badly she wants to tell me that she wants to but how she's against secret relationships.
"I understand" i said and she asked for some advices. I told her that if he loves you that much he wouldn't hesitate in his feeling and ask your hand in marriage instead of some secret relationship that may or may not last.
"You're right but i dunno what if he isn't the one for me and i make a mistake?" She said.
"This is 9gr we're talking abo-" i stopped knowing who 9gr is.
To be honest, i have never seen him fall in love let alone be romantic.
He's stubborn, hot tempered but very hilarious and protective.
Those features made him attractive, some girls fell for him during high school and he has only been in few relationship but most of them never lasted nor were they true.
It's like a big life triangle of love, it seems like we always end up in this triangle.
[Shaikha's POV]
Our call lasted for what seems like hours just trying to figure out this mess.
We then hung up and i just swiped back on whatsapp and opened 9gr's chat.
9gr: "yalklba a7bch"
Me: "hahahhaha ok"
9gr: "shnw y3ni ant7r 3shan et9dgen"
Me: "wait your serious"
9gr: "shaikha..."
Me: "what.."
9gr: "shaikha a7bch, i always have"
And that was it.
I didn't reply, i was out of words to say. I have never been loved before and this is just too weird for me.
What if i do become in a relationship, like a girlfriend boyfriend kind. What if my brother finds out. What if this wasn't true love and the actual deal.
I started over thinking and none were positive. I didn't want to break his heart nor did i want my reputation to be in hazard.
I decided i'll give him an answer tomorrow knowing i may have cleared my mind.
A part of me wants to explore those feelings and the other wants to stay away from all this. I didn't want any distractions as my finals were coming and they weren't as easy as you think.
I did a weighing scale hand gesture and began saying "should i break his heart and reject him or should i go on an adventure of love?" I groaned and rubbed my face in frustration. I then thought, "do i even love him."
I laughed at myself and the frowned,
"Do i?" I remembered my actions around him and his around me.
I never suspected him to love me, and if he does why hasn't he confessed until now. Why was it after 3ziz's death by a year.
I should be asking him those questions instead of yelling everything in my mind, but i couldn't i feel very awkward doing so.
I look up to him as a brother and besides he has never treated me specially, he was just always there.
This is all so new and crazy to me. I decided to sleep, that's all i can do now.
I tried to fall deeper in sleep instead i fell deeper in thoughts.
I didn't want to love him nor did i want to hate me. Despite the fact that deep inside i know what i feel towards him.
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