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Back to my normal life.

The life that i'm thankful to have but still never really enjoyed.

Whenever i switch with shaikha.

It just sort of opens up a whole new life experience for me. 

Ever since my childhood, all my mother and father did was shower me with whatever i wanted just to hush me up. 

I sighed as i was in the car on my way back home.  

Most of my old friends admired my life, because i got everything i wanted, and i got to do what ever i wanted, but they really don't know. 

Yeah el7mdellah i got everything but that isn't happiness. I want a father that loves, a mother that cares and not just items. 

When i got sick, there was nurses hired to make sure i was cured. 

When i was sad, my nanny would be there to comfort me.

When i was depressed, nothing but my bedrooms four walls were there for me. 

D3ay was there for me most if the times, but he isn't always around me at home. 

But never my father and never my mother.

All i had with my mother was a friendly understanding of 'if you have a problem come to me' which i never do. 

But they're my parents and i have nothing to do about it, but accept the fact.

I just can't believe she hasn't told me that she used to work as doctor. 

Now what i know that she has her own business and that's basically how she met dad. I never knew she was a doctor. 

I'm just curious though to how did she have a hand in their child death.

For now all i'll care about this weekend is d3ay. I admit, i haven't been talking to him this week because of everything. 

I reached home and headed up stairs.I texted him saying i'll be there tomorrow afternoon. 

I had lunch upstairs i didn't feel like going down. Those negative thoughts are giving me depression vibes.

I heard a knock on my door and before i gave permission my mother entered. 

"Mama a7en bnrou7 bait ydtch bdli" she said and left.

"Okaay" i whispered to myself.

Lately she has been ignoring me far more than usual. Basically ignoring so i wouldn't ask any further questions.

I had a feeling of wanting to cry, i didn't like this. Sometimes i have this feeling where all i want to do is hug my mother and nothing but that, but she's just never there. Sometimes i want to hire someone to kidnap me just so i could get them to car.

I took a deep sigh and got up to change. It's ironic how people portrait rich people as happy. 

Well, yeah most of them are. When they have the people they care about surrounding them with lobe and affection, But not me.

'El7mdellah 3ala kl 7al' i thought

I got ready and headed downstairs.

My mother left just as i did, so we both left together without saying a single word. 

We reached my grandmothers house and it isn't as big as i imagined but it looks homey. 

we entered and we were greeted by 5 kids playing together in the hallway. 

I could see grandma sitting at the end of that hall. The house isn't as big in the inside too. 

We went straight towards the living room and greeted them all of kisses and then sat. 

I saw mona there. She gave me glances as i think she was there at noof's birthday. Damn she saw me and m7md i'm sure. 

We sat and talked about dubai and all then mona came up to me and asked me to join them in her room.

Her room? 

I didn't know she lived here. 

I entered with her and my other cousins greeted me they were 3 girls, mona, her sister reem, and another cousin aisha. 

"Ahlan sharaftena" said reem. 

I smiled at them i felt awkward because i barely knew them, but i know that i have to make friends around here i'm going to be seeing them more often. 

Their room is two beds and two closets, a small tv in the middle of those two closets and an arm chair. 

It's small, they all sat in on the beds so i did too. 

"Shloun elmdrsa m3ach?" Asked reem

"El7mdellah okay" i replied.

"Ee esh3ad chfty rb3ha mn" said mona. 

"La mn?" Asked reem to me. 

"M7md w 9gr" she replied.

It's like i'm being gossiped on, the only thing is that i was there.

"7lfai oh my god" exclaimed reem.

"Ee t3ali 9ij enty m56oba" asked reem. 

"T8reban ll7en matmt el56ba" i replied.

"L79'a l79'a shloun enty mw m3a m7md" asked mona.

Shit. 

Damn u sara!

"L-La" i replied while stuttering. 

"Oh" she looked at me suspiciously. 

Great now god knows what she's thinking of.

"Enty knty m3a 3ziz allah yr7ma 97?" I asked to cut the tension. 

"3ziz mat?!" Asked reem in shock.

"Bwww 9arla mda al7en" replied mona. 

What. The. Hell. 

They are talking about him like he's some trash. 

I couldn't help but look at her in disgust. How can she talk like that.

I looked at aisha she wasn't saying anything but listening and she had the same expression as i did to mona, we watched her as she laughed. "Wee shfeekm" she said while still laughing the night away. 

"Enzain al7en nrj3 7g mw9'oo3 el56eb, shsma?" Asked reem.

Gosh elLgafa. 

"D3ay" i replied 3ala wzn elso2al.

"7beebch y3ni ohwa?" She asked again. "La la rb3 mn el6fola" i replied. "Oh alay cute" she said.

I just nodded. They started chatting about m7md and 9gr like they were the most important things in the world. 

"Shla et3eshon ehnee?" I asked out of the blue.

They all looked at me and reem answered, "long story shorty parents are divorced, my father is married his wife doesn't like us and well we couldn't love with mother because her husband is a stranger to us, so we're here."

"Oh i'm sorry i shouldn't of asked" i replied, i could see their faces looked a bit sad at that memory. 

"La 3ady shd3wa" replied reem.

I got a text from d3ay's sister.

'Tara d3ay bynt8l mstashfa fe dbai' 

What the actual..

I texted back ignoring their chats.  

'What?' 

She replied after a minute.

'You should visit tomorrow l2na sunday he's going back' 

'Why is he going to another hospital, i thought he was fine' i replied to her text. I was starting to get anxiety because i was worried. 

She replied back 'wait i'll call you'

I was going to deny but she called. 

"Ast2thnkm dgeega" i excused myself and left. 

I answered, "ha whats wrong?" I asked, "umm what exactly?" She replied. 

"Mw 7ztch laish bero7 mstashfa thanya fe shy?" I asked wanting no beating around the bush.

"I can't say, i mean i don't know how to say it" she replied, i started to panic, my heart beats were raising every beat stronger than the other.

"Wh-What do you mean?" I said.

"Promise me you won't freak out" she made me promise, "okay listen remember his smoking issue-" she started, i just hummed yeah. 

"Well let us just say it's worst than you think" she was hiding something i know it. 

"Fa6ma go straight to the point ma7b chthe just tell me" i begged her to tell me, i wanted to know badly what was wrong. 

She sighed and went silent for a moment, "ma3rf shloun agolch hessa" she went silent again and i was slowly running out of patience. 

"Fa6ma i'll kill you enzain" i threatened her.

"D3ay fe cancer" she finally said.

Her words rung in my head.

Echoed a thousand times.

My heart was pounding furiously like i was running in some marathon, somehow it feels like i expected this would be the issue but denied it several time in my mind just like i did to my feeling towards him, and just as i finally admitted that i love him. I'll admit now that d3ay is in fact extremely ill and may or may not live.

Negative thoughts attacked my mind as i stood there completely at shock. I heard her call my name repeatedly in the phone but i couldn't speak, my tongue was tied and i felt light headed. A tear fell from my eyes but i wiped them quick and told her that i'll be fine. 

We hung up, and i went back to the room. 

"Hessa shfeech?" Rushed reem towards me and supported back to sit on the bed. 

I smiled and tears streamed down my face. That's where i couldn't help but cry hard. I couldn't breath from crying. All of them were in deep shock, reem was the first to take me in for a hug of comfort. I saw mona rushing outside, and moments later my mother burst in. 

She pushed reem away from me and for the first time, my mother hugged me like never before. It felt warm, and my river of tears almost stopped flowing. I smelled her perfume, as she rubbed circles on my back to comfort me. 

I stopped crying and i lightly pushed my mother away from me, it was more like 'bdon ma7s', i actually was shocked that i did that. 

I sighed and wiped my tears,

She looked right into my eyes and told me we're leaving. 

In the car, i was thinking about what just happened, i'm surprised that i haven't passed out.

"Fa6ma galatlch?" Asked my mother.

"You knew?" I replied with another question. 

"Knt bagolch bs makan elwgt mnasb" she replied.

I shrugged and looked at the time,

"Fe wgt 5l nrou7 lah" i said,

"La chofy 7altch allah y3lm shbtswen" she replied.

"Take me to him!" I ordered. 

She looked at me with her eye brows coming close together indicating she didn't like my tone, "no" was all she said. 

It was 6pm why not, the hospital is one turn away, and yet she doesn't want me to see him now.

We reached home and i locked myself in my room, prayed and then cried myself to sleep. 

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