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I just sat there, shocked and confused. I wasn't sure if he was serious but he said it with a straight face and showed no sign of it being a joke. 

My heart just paced quickly and i felt like i was going to puke out my heart in any moment. 

"Bs bs ensi ensi" he said as he got up and left. Leaving me to the echo's in my head repeatedly saying his words. 

I didn't know how to react.

I didn't want to lose him nor did i want the past to repeat itself.

I got a call from our driver that he's out and i just walked to the car with a straight shocked face in depth of thoughts.

The whole ride back home was me thinking 'what on earth just happened' 

My mother wasn't home when i got there and i'm thankful i didn't want her to see my face and shower me with questions.

I didn't know what to do, this hasn't directly happen to me and all i thought about was how the past is repeating itself. 

D3ay was my best friend, he proposed, i agreed and he then died.  

I kept thinking that it might happen again and i had enough heart ache. 

Should i call shaikha and inform her or just stay feeling like i was falling from a tall building with no ending. 

Surprisingly i didn't have anxiety, i don't know if my mental feeling didn't acknowledge it or was it just fed up of my personal life. 

This is all so surprising. I had a feeling he liked me but wasn't sure.

I had a feeling i liked him and i wasn't sure. It's just so complicated.

I finally decided to call shaikha she's probably the most sanest person i know right now.

It took a moment until she answered and my heart was still pounding.

"Ahlan" she said and i just breathed  heavily. "Shfech ttnfsain chthe?" She asked.

"Mabt9dgen esh9ar" i started, she laughed and said "shnw ba3aad"

I told her what happened and her reaction was as pure as mine was.

"M7md? Omg cute" she said

"No shaikha i'm freaking out madri shaswi" i said.

"Go with what the whispering voices tell u" she said trying to sound deep.

"Shaikha bahfch ebznobat el7mam shnw i listen to the voices they're yelling the word panic" i said.

"Okay okay first of all chillax and take a deep breath you're over-reacting" she instructed.

I did as she said and tried to calm down but i wasn't calming down i was for some reason excited.

"Okay okay now tell me what are you feeling" she asked.

"I'm freaking out, i'm confused, surprised, shocked and.. excited"

I said and calmed when i said excited. It rung in my head. 

Why was i excited?!

"Excited? Hessa are you mentally okay?" She mocked and i sighed.

"Yes i know it's odd but it's like a part of me is yelling yes and another is repeating the word past" 

I said.

"5ayfa y9er nfs ely 9ar m3a d3ay?" 

She asked, and i said "yeah"

"G6 mara 56r efbalch that there is a reason behind his death and parting you from him like that? Remember when i told you things happen for a reason what if this was the reason..." She stopped and sighed, "you want my opinion? I think he's the reason" 

I stopped for a moment to recollect what she said and i finally came to a decision that she's right. However i still had my suspicion.   

"But what if it wasn't?" I said as my usual negative self does. 

"What if wasn't? What if you lose what might be the best decision u have ever made?" She said.

"I need time to think this is happening too fast i.." I stopped and sighed. 

"Est5eri" she said, "what?" I replied i didn't quite hear clearly what she said. "Est-5eri" she rephrased. 

"Alright. i will" and we hung up.

I sat there for a moment to think about it. I remembered how he got up and left i felt like i embarrassed him, more like rejected him. 

I rubbed my face and groaned. 

I got up twa9'ait and 9lait est5ara.

I then sat on my bed and just stared blankly at the empty wall in front of my bed, then laid on my bed and just stared at the ceiling. 

Plenty of thoughts crossed my mind, whether it was the right thing to do or not, i knew it was but my negative vibes weren't in agreement. 

I closed my eyes and moments later i dozed. 

It was dark, complete and utter darkness. I walked blankly not knowing where i was going, it felt like my physical self was moving while my mental self had no control.

There was a light fading at the far end of where ever i was, i walked and the light went away but i kept walking, suddenly it was like i tripped, slowly. 

It felt like slow motion my heart started pounding with no support around and i suddenly felt a strong hand holding me , stopping my slow motion fall. I turned around and i swear it looked like m7md.

I opened my eyes and my heart was pounding and i was panting silently. 

I sat up from my bed and examined my surrounding, i was in my room at the same position i was before i dozed. 

What does this dream mean?

Whatever it was that it meant, i had one feeling at that moment and it's acceptance. 

For some reason i feel comfortable about it and the whispering voice in my head said the same.

I texted shaikha telling her about my dream.

Shaikha: "y3ni engol mbrook?"

Me: "don't rush it i still have to tell him" 

Shaikha: "did u tell sara?"

Oh shit i forgot.

Me: "no u tell her :$"

Shaikha: "i already did..."

Me: "well that explains her lecture to me that i haven't opened yet"

Shaikha: "wait wait bswi group lna bs" 

Me: "alright"

And just like that the group was made and i got a full line of cursing from sara about why she's the last to know this. 

Me: "okay okay asfeen al7en shaswi?!"

Sara: "tell him! make it special"

Me: "what do i say i'm nervous"

Shaikha: "how about you call him?"

Me: "madri about that i feel awkward"

Sara: "ee 7da awkward" 

Shaikha: "enzain talk to him flwhatsapp a7san 3shan may7ll your reaction like he always does"

Sara: "eeee hahaha he'll read your mind it scares me"

Me: "hahaha okay okay i'll text him now"

I took deep breath and just stared at his name on whatsapp for probably a minute or more, it felt like hours. 

I hesitated a lot, i was nervous. 

[M7md's POV]

I had a tv in my room so i kept it on, but i wasn't actually watching, it was just a background sound.

I laid on my back and stared at the ceiling and butterflies swarmed inside of me. I hated the feeling.

I'm so stupid i should of waited, how can i show her my face after this.

Her reaction is like the only memory i have of everything in my life. It's like that's all i remember nothing before.

My phone vibrated and i lazily picked it up and saw that i got a text from no one other than hessa herself saying hi. 

Hi? This can't get any awkwarder.

I sat up and texted ahlan.

Making it even more awkwarder.

It had typing... Under her name and my heart raced wondering what's next?

Hessa: "m7md about earlier.."

She texted and stopped. 

My heart beats were off the charts. 

Me: "what about it?" 

Hessa: "i don't know how to start"

Me: "don't know just feel. I don't want to force you into something you don't want and i understand if you said no"

With every word i typed my heart ached, i never felt like that ever since my father abandoned us. 

Hessa: "but i'm saying yes"

What?

What just..

That gave me goosebumps.

No wait, i felt electric shock in my head.

M7md: "you're serious?"

This is almost unbelievable.

Hessa: "no"

What..

Me: "what."

Hessa: "i'm kidding i'm kidding yes yes and a million times yes."

I got up and hurried to my mother. 

I searched for her i her room and living room she wasn't there.

"Yma!" I called yelling.

"Shfeek et9ar5" she yelled back from the kitchen. 

I went to her and kissed her forehead, "shfeek bsmela 3laik"

I looked at her with the hugest smile, i could feel crinkles around my eyes forming.

"Hessa?" She said with a mocking smile. I nodded. 

She sighed and sat on the living room sofa and began searching for hessa's mother number.

I sat next to my mother and i really felt like a child eagerly waiting.  

[Hessa's POV]

My mother called me few minutes after i finally agreed. 

I went for her and she informed that his mother will come tomorrow. 

I felt my face heat up.

"Laish?" I said as if i didn't know.

"Etha ma5ab 9'ni 56btch 7g m7md"

She said looking at me suspiciously.

I just oh-ed. 

"You don't look surprised" she said, 

"Ha hessa?"

"gali and then s7b elkalam w msha and i mentally agreed" i said.

"Mentally?" She asked suspiciously.

"Okay no.. i just told him that i agree few minutes before she called you"

I shyly said.

"Y3ni enty knty m3a?!" She said.

"La wala maknt he came to me straight forward and asked me to marry him just like d3ay did."

I said assuring her nothing was between me and him over and over again until she was finally convinced. 

Tomorrow is going to be one heck of a day. I want it to happen today before tomorrow. But as i know it patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.

@TheBlxg_

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