35 -The End-

This is the final chapter, i just would like to dedicate this to all my readers! 

I love you guys so much! 

 Sorry if this chapter is short but it is what it is i hope you guys love it xx -Hessa

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Finally it's my day.

10 january 2014.

This is the day that i and m7md are officially called husband and wife.

Everyone is coming, my family, his and my friends. I can't explain how over the hills am i right now.

I woke up early due to the over excitement i had inside of me.

I got a morning text from m7md 

"Elyoum [dancing emoji]" 

I silently chuckled at it and sighed.

Sighed in relief today is that day i have been planning for a whole month and a half.

I can't even describe how this feels like, it's like a mixture of excitement, fear, happiness and anxiety all together. 

I got up and did all the morning normal which is washing my face, brushing my teeth, showering and praying you know, all the good stuff. 

I headed downstairs and had breakfast. I looked around and saw all the decorations for today.

Shaikha and sara were coming early, they'll get ready here with me.

Noura was too i grew closer with her in the past month, she's lovable. 

After they arrived we began talking about the future and how my life would be. It was a face reddening subject i'm not even going to mention what was said. 

Hours later everyone else began getting ready i was putting on my make up and i made it clear i didn't want to be the bride of monster land. 

I let my hair in flowing waves with two pins each side of my bangs.

I didn't wear white for my mlcha i wore royal purple and made most of the theme matching this colour. I'm leaving the white gown for the wedding. 

White and royal purple. 

I had shaikha and sara in here getting ready too. They came and just stared at me.

"Shit can i marry you instead" said sara and we laughed. They both were gorgeous and i myself was too.

I was nervous and had a weird feeling inside of me. After my face and hair was ready i got up and wore my dress and anxiety making it's way into me. 

I looked at myself as everyone went downstairs to greet the guests and have a good time.

My mother entered and gasped.

"Shnw fe shay 3'ala6?!" I said panicking. 

"Laa u look perfect" she said with a warm smile.

I didn't reply i started crying and tried not to mess my make up.

My mother came and hugged me, reem my cousin and sara entered. 

"Bs lat9e7en bt5rben mkyajch" said my mother trying to calm me down.

"Shfeeha?" Asked sara, "5ayfa" said my mother. I was freaking out after this day my life will be different. I will no longer wake up and search for my mother. I will be waking up to m7mds face everyday. It's a nice thought but frightening at the same time, i don't know why. 

Hours later it was time i went downstairs, this has been the most frightening moment of my life.

I heard tybyb downstairs i knew m7md entered, my heart started pounding and i began breathing heavily.

I heard the music queue and i was told to go downstairs when i heard it.

I clinched to the purple rose bouquet and began walking and my ears clogged, you know when you're in a flight and u suddenly feel like clogged ears and hear nothing but faded voices, Yeah.

Everything went slow and faded, i first looked at most of the guests and then i locked my eyes on no one but m7md. He looked speechless and just stared at me surprised and astounded. 

I smiled to him and he returned nothing, he basically froze in his place. I reached to where he stood and we were inches away from each other. I could smell his cologne and the bu5or and god was it amazing.

He bent down, softly held my face and kissed my forehead, which sent goosebumps down my spine. 

We exchanged rings and then sat next to each other as our photos were taken. 

He leaned close to me and whispered in my ears, "Wa5eran 9rty ly" 

I looked at him and smiled, i didn't know how to reply so i shyly looked away and he planted a kiss on my cheeks. 

That was it.

That was the beginning of an amazing love story. My love story. 

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A link to The Double 2:

http://thedoublesequel.blogspot.com/2014/01/1.html

This is the second story, a sequel of this one.

34

This month was the busiest. 

I tried my best to balance preparation of my finals and my mlcha. 

M7md and i spent our weekends and some weekdays doing our project in my house.  

He was coming today as well for the final finishing touches for the project. 

I sat on my computer typing down our research over msj el5mees and our steps in doing it all that was left is one last picture and the epilogue. 

"Hessa m7md w9l!" yelled my mother from behind the door.

"Okay!" I yelled back.

I got up, i looked at myself before i left, and covered myself and headed downstairs. 

"Ahlan" i said entering our maylas. 

He was sitting on one of the sofas and using his phone. When i entered grasping his attention he had a smirk which gave me goosebumps for some reason.

"Halla" he said with a soft chuckle, standing up and still holding his smirk.

We had an eye contact for a moment, it always happens when he visits. It's like this is the first time he sees me and i always liked it. 

I sat but he stood and began searching in his thoub pocket. 

I looked at him confusingly and he took out a box, similar to the one he gave me at cine cafe. 

"Ooo a gift for me" i said with excitement. He sat next to waiting for me to open the box. I did and it was another charm for the bracelet he gave me. It was a mini msjd el5mees charm, i found it cute.

He pulled his hand out "36eni ydch" he instructed and i did. I never take off the bracelet unless I'm showering.

Some people give diamond rings, necklaces plenty of jewellery, but m7md gives me charms with meaning. 

I understood by this act, he's trying to keep a memory. When time passes by and after this bracelet is full of charms, we'll look back to it and remember every moments we had together. 

He doesn't shower me with expensive shit and brands, and i like it. He's modest and simple in his words and everything.

This man got me with his charms and i ain't ranting about it.

He finished attaching the charm to my bracelet and just had eye contact, which is now a habit we had every time we went silent. 

"Magelteli chm tben mhar?" He asked still holding his oscar winning smile. 

I haven't thought of it, so i did a 'i'm thinking' pose and hummed i thought. "Million" i mockingly said, i wasn't really going to ask for that much but i wanted to see his reaction. 

He smiled and showed no shocked or freaked out reaction which surprised me. I looked at him in confusion blowing off my plan of seeing his reaction. 

"What?" I asked, "nothing.." He said warmly smiling "..7a9'r, million? 9ar" 

I was like what? He's serious.

"L79'a l79'a mn 9jk?" I asked, he nodded seriously and i was the one shocked. 

"No wait at3'shmr that's alot" i said, "l3lmch lw shkthr t6lben mafe floos etyy b8emtch 3ndy" he said shutting me up. He literally shut me up.

I was speechless, that almost had me in tears. It was the cutest thing anyone has ever said to me. 

I looked at him having a huge toothy smile. My face heated up and i know i blushed vigorously. 

He laughed, "chofy chm tben mhr w goleeli" i just nodded. 

"Enzain elproject mabe5l9 bro7a" i said trying to change this face heating subject. 

We got up and started adding the last few touches which was adding sand and fixing any error paint job.

At the end, i took a picture of our model and posted it on Instagram. 

We had few drops of paint in our hand, and thankfully none on our clothes. 

We had lunch together and then he left. I headed upstairs to get clean, and got a call from shaikha.

"Hi" i greeted with excitement. 

"Mabt9dgeen!" She greeted me back.

"Bsmallah shfech?" I asked.

"9gr just confessed that he loved me" she began.

"Wait what? 9gr?!" I said in total shock.

"Eee knt m3a abdulrahman and he texted me saying he wanted to tell me something important i was like alright what is it he began hesitating and then we argued, you know because of his usual horrible temper and then he went like yal kalba a7bch i'm like what" she said in a quiet tone so no one could over hear her. 

I sat on my bed trying to recollect what i was just told. This is surprising. weird and surprising.

"What was your reaction?" I asked.

"I laughed i thought he was joking but he wasn't" she said.

I laughed and said , "he confessed and you laughed" 

"Ylklba i thought he was joking what do i do" she said obviously panicking.

"What do u want to do?" I said like i was some therapist.

"I like him bs madri mabi i get involved fe hl ashya u know what i mean?" She said and i know how badly she wants to tell me that she wants to but how she's against secret relationships. 

"I understand" i said and she asked for some advices. I told her that if he loves you that much he wouldn't hesitate in his feeling and ask your hand in marriage instead of some secret relationship that may or may not last. 

"You're right but i dunno what if he isn't the one for me and i make a mistake?" She said.

"This is 9gr we're talking abo-" i stopped knowing who 9gr is. 

To be honest, i have never seen him fall in love let alone be romantic. 

He's stubborn, hot tempered but very hilarious and protective. 

Those features made him attractive, some girls fell for him during high school and he has only been in few relationship but most of them never lasted nor were they true. 

It's like a big life triangle of love, it seems like we always end up in this triangle. 

[Shaikha's POV]

Our call lasted for what seems like hours just trying to figure out this mess. 

We then hung up and i just swiped back on whatsapp and opened 9gr's chat. 

9gr: "yalklba a7bch"

Me: "hahahhaha ok" 

9gr: "shnw y3ni ant7r 3shan et9dgen"

Me: "wait your serious"

9gr: "shaikha..."

Me: "what.."

9gr: "shaikha a7bch, i always have"

And that was it. 

I didn't reply, i was out of words to say. I have never been loved before and this is just too weird for me. 

What if i do become in a relationship, like a girlfriend boyfriend kind. What if my brother finds out. What if this wasn't true love and the actual deal. 

I started over thinking and none were positive. I didn't want to break his heart nor did i want my reputation to be in hazard. 

I decided i'll give him an answer tomorrow knowing i may have cleared my mind. 

A part of me wants to explore those feelings and the other wants to stay away from all this. I didn't want any distractions as my finals were coming and they weren't as easy as you think. 

I did a weighing scale hand gesture and began saying "should i break his heart and reject him or should i go on an adventure of love?" I groaned and rubbed my face in frustration. I then thought, "do i even love him."

I laughed at myself and the frowned,

"Do i?" I remembered my actions around him and his around me.

I never suspected him to love me, and if he does why hasn't he confessed until now. Why was it after 3ziz's death by a year.

I should be asking him those questions instead of yelling everything in my mind, but i couldn't i feel very awkward doing so. 

I look up to him as a brother and besides he has never treated me specially, he was just always there. 

This is all so new and crazy to me. I decided to sleep, that's all i can do now. 

I tried to fall deeper in sleep instead i fell deeper in thoughts.

I didn't want to love him nor did i want to hate me. Despite the fact that deep inside i know what i feel towards him.

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Next morning i had a day off.

Sadly i had plenty of time to kill until his mother came. 

I was nervous i didn't know how this worked. My engagement to d3ay was different like two mothers friends since high school, met together, i became best friends with her son and boom i'm engaged. 

Right now, this was all so traditional to me. I didn't know, what to wear, how to react and most of all if he was coming too or not. 

Many questions poured into my mind which has been a trait in me to over think everything those days.

And it was only 11 AM. 

I went downstairs for my mother and get all those questions flushed out. 

"9ba7 el5air" she said and i kissed her forehead, "mama mtwtra" i said.

"Lattwtrain btyy oma w ohwa bs lbsi jalabya ksh5a mstra w enshalla 5air"

She said and the thought that he'll come too just jumbles my insides. 

Hours passed while i picked the perfect outfit and applied simple make up of a low winged eyeliner, coral pink lipgloss and blusher.

I swirled my veil as he's just going to see me and we weren't married yet. 

My mother knocked on my door and informed me that they were here.

Shit. I was nervous, anxious, excited, i don't know what to do or what i'll expect. I walked downstairs to our maylas where they all sat. 

My eyes locked itself to m7md's making me lower my head as i felt my face heat up.

I sat next to my mother and he sat next to his along with another girl which i'm going to guess is Noura.

My mother and his talked about random life things and then focused on us. 

"Yaz3m tst7on mn b39'" began his mother and oh did my heart sink at that moment. I gave her my oscar wining smile and slightly lowered my head. 

"Bngom bn5lekm ttklmon m3a b39' shwy" i looked her not wanting her to leave, but she left, They all did leaving me alone with him. 

He chuckled and said, "tst7en yaz3m" i lifted my face and a surprised smile was on my face and i lightly hit his shoulder and he pretended like i injured him. 

We both laughed and then the sound of the air conditioner was the only thing that could be heard. 

We just kept having eye contacts in between head lowering, it was like that's all we could do. 

"Mashalla" he said, and i just stared at him, "kl hl jmal mlki be9er" he said with a dimpled smirk and i think my natural blush just covered my make-up blush in redness.

He laughed, "a7la shy lma tst7en 5dodch yglbon 7mr madri shlon" he said worsening the blushing.

"Bs enzain draina" i said trying to change the subject and the parents entered making him silently groan and in response i silently chuckled. 

They got up and left leaving me and my mother and her thousand questions. 

"Ha sh9ar? Mwaf8a?" She asked.

I nodded, "9ij?!" She said, i nodded even stronger. 

She came and hugged me, "mbrook 7beebty allah ytmm 3laikm" 

i'm officially engaged to m7md. Sweet.

[M7md's POV]

  

This day can't get any better.

I mentally repeated the word "el7mdella" and "wa5eran"

The fact that the only girl i ever loved is now my fiancé, and soon to be wife. It's crazy how only a year ago i met her. 

When i got home i called 9gr telling him about my updates. He's like the only person i could feel comfortable in telling him what goes inside my head. 

"Aloo" i started, "ahlan bl3ashg elwalhan sh9ar?"

"R7t chft'ha ya5i mafe ajml mnha" i said, "w5t'ha ely 6bg ela9l?" He said with a chuckle.

"Shyou5 5lha 3la 9ob madri ya5i a7s'hm maytshabhon" i said, and that's true they do identically look alike but i as me, am able to find the difference.

"Enzain mageltly sh5bar glbk ma7b?" I mockingly say knowing it did. 

"Bt'hzar?" He said trying to pull an Egyptian accent. Well, you see he has been in love with shaikha ever since middle school but she never knew.

"At3'shmar at3'shmar mta nawi etgolha tara btrou7 mnk" i said playfully threatening him.

"Bgolha jreeb bs mw al7en" he said repeating the same words over like he does every time i ask him. 

"Enzain bklmk b3dain bat9l fe hessa" i said, and he mimicked me, we laughed and hung up.

I wasn't actually going to call her, i didn't know what to say then my mother entered and asked me about f79 elzwaj, which is blood tests before marriage to see if their blood type matched and was okay. 

I now had a thing to talk about so i called her.

[Hessa's POV]

I was skyping with shaikha telling her everything that has happened and m7md called me.  

"Shit m7md" i said, "pick up i want to listen just pretend i'm not here" she said, i lifted an eyebrow and answered. 

"Alo?" I started "halla" he greeted.

"Erm.. Hessa fe mjal enrou7 bachr el9b7 enswi f79 zwaj wla 3ndch m7a9'ra?" He asked and the word 'f79 zwaj' rung in my head.

"Ee akeed laish la" i said, "bs 3yal okay achofch bachr 56ebty" he said and i chuckled "bye" was all i could say. I was nervous, "bs bye yal jafa?!" He playfully said. 

I felt awkward with shaikha listening to me while saying it. 

"Ee bs bye bchofk bachr yala ksh" i said laughing as if we were back in high school. He laughed "enzain enzain way3a" and we hung up. 

"You're the most awkward fiancé ever" said shaikha and i laughed.

"Skti eswi goli bye 56eby i'm like dafuq this is weird i ain't saying it" 

Making her laugh in tears. 

"Enzain how's university any hot guys" i said wiggling my eyebrows.

"Gaibsh twch en56bty 3ad bs seda" she said sarcastically trying to flip the subjects towards me. 

"You know i'm not talking about me" i said still wiggling my eyebrows.

"Embala" she said with an angelic smile, and i laughed. 

She talked to me about how easy foundation year is and how she's having an amazing time here. 

"Ee sh3ad eldctora shaikha" i said making her chuckle in pride. 

We closed our call and i headed for dinner, thinking about what is the future holding for me. 

The next day came and m7md arrived, i entered the car and we drove to the hospital.

"Tara ma3rf shagol ent tklm" i said,

He laughed and said, "enzain" 

We got there and they called us for blood test, i wasn't the kind that cries when a needle is dug into me but i just silently freak out.

"Ent rou7 gbli" i said, "et5afen?" He said with a chuckle, i chuckled back and said "nope" he sat and slightly winced when it was dug into him but showed no reaction other than staring at me and smiling. 

It was my turn and i sat.

The needle was almost the size of my phone, i gasped at the sight of it making m7md laugh. 

"Bsch yaldrama queen" he said mocking me making the nurse chuckle. I buckled up my courage and closed my eyes looked the other way. 

I could feel the needle being pierced into my left hand like it had no ending, it stayed for a while and i just wincingly gasped when it was pierced but didn't feel a thing after that. 

We laughed at my reaction to the needle as we drove to university. 

I'm not sure yet if i like him or not but i'm sure that feelings for him are growing day by day. 

"Enzain mta tben elmlcha?" He asked, "mmmm.. B3d elfinals a7san" 

"Tdren eni akml emt7anat fe 4-jan 97?" He said, "ee adri fa 3ndna esbo3ain b3d hl youm w bnswe ym3a" I said, "enzain chofy ay youm fe thak elesbo3 w 5breni" he said and i nodded. 

Good thing we had our sunday lecture on tuesday too and after that i had history. 

The professor talked about the final project and said it was fine if we grouped, but only with one person.

I sat at the far end today right next to m7md, and maryam sat next to me. 

He insisted that i sat next to him. 

"Men badw fe group w men la2?" Our professor said he's syrian. 

I looked at maryam and at m7md,

"A9lan baswe m3a 7bebt glaiby shayma 97?" She said to the girl next to her and she agreeingly laughed. That settles it i'm grouping with m7md then. 

He asked everyone and it came down to m7md.

"M7md l7alak?" He asked.

"La la group m3a elmadam ely ymi" he confidently said and i blushed.

That was awkward everyone looked at us, i lightly punched his shoulder like why did u say it like that. 

I love this relationship i have with him, it's not based on romantics words that make things awkward.

We're like normal two best friends, that are getting married. 

We talked about what our project will be, and we agreed that it's going to be msj el5mees, one of the oldest masjd in bahrain. 

"Mta bnbdi fe? bga 3 asabe3 3ala youm eltslem" he asked locking his eyes on the road. 

"Mn bachr a7san 5l nftak mna gbl elemt7anat w 3shan a566 7g elmlcha" i said and realised what i said after saying it. 

He just coughed and chuckled and we reached my home. 

"3yal achofch bachr" he said 

And i nodded shutting the door and entering my house.

From today onwards i'm going to have to start planning for my mlcha and well the project all together. 

Fun and a very busy month this would be. 

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I just sat there, shocked and confused. I wasn't sure if he was serious but he said it with a straight face and showed no sign of it being a joke. 

My heart just paced quickly and i felt like i was going to puke out my heart in any moment. 

"Bs bs ensi ensi" he said as he got up and left. Leaving me to the echo's in my head repeatedly saying his words. 

I didn't know how to react.

I didn't want to lose him nor did i want the past to repeat itself.

I got a call from our driver that he's out and i just walked to the car with a straight shocked face in depth of thoughts.

The whole ride back home was me thinking 'what on earth just happened' 

My mother wasn't home when i got there and i'm thankful i didn't want her to see my face and shower me with questions.

I didn't know what to do, this hasn't directly happen to me and all i thought about was how the past is repeating itself. 

D3ay was my best friend, he proposed, i agreed and he then died.  

I kept thinking that it might happen again and i had enough heart ache. 

Should i call shaikha and inform her or just stay feeling like i was falling from a tall building with no ending. 

Surprisingly i didn't have anxiety, i don't know if my mental feeling didn't acknowledge it or was it just fed up of my personal life. 

This is all so surprising. I had a feeling he liked me but wasn't sure.

I had a feeling i liked him and i wasn't sure. It's just so complicated.

I finally decided to call shaikha she's probably the most sanest person i know right now.

It took a moment until she answered and my heart was still pounding.

"Ahlan" she said and i just breathed  heavily. "Shfech ttnfsain chthe?" She asked.

"Mabt9dgen esh9ar" i started, she laughed and said "shnw ba3aad"

I told her what happened and her reaction was as pure as mine was.

"M7md? Omg cute" she said

"No shaikha i'm freaking out madri shaswi" i said.

"Go with what the whispering voices tell u" she said trying to sound deep.

"Shaikha bahfch ebznobat el7mam shnw i listen to the voices they're yelling the word panic" i said.

"Okay okay first of all chillax and take a deep breath you're over-reacting" she instructed.

I did as she said and tried to calm down but i wasn't calming down i was for some reason excited.

"Okay okay now tell me what are you feeling" she asked.

"I'm freaking out, i'm confused, surprised, shocked and.. excited"

I said and calmed when i said excited. It rung in my head. 

Why was i excited?!

"Excited? Hessa are you mentally okay?" She mocked and i sighed.

"Yes i know it's odd but it's like a part of me is yelling yes and another is repeating the word past" 

I said.

"5ayfa y9er nfs ely 9ar m3a d3ay?" 

She asked, and i said "yeah"

"G6 mara 56r efbalch that there is a reason behind his death and parting you from him like that? Remember when i told you things happen for a reason what if this was the reason..." She stopped and sighed, "you want my opinion? I think he's the reason" 

I stopped for a moment to recollect what she said and i finally came to a decision that she's right. However i still had my suspicion.   

"But what if it wasn't?" I said as my usual negative self does. 

"What if wasn't? What if you lose what might be the best decision u have ever made?" She said.

"I need time to think this is happening too fast i.." I stopped and sighed. 

"Est5eri" she said, "what?" I replied i didn't quite hear clearly what she said. "Est-5eri" she rephrased. 

"Alright. i will" and we hung up.

I sat there for a moment to think about it. I remembered how he got up and left i felt like i embarrassed him, more like rejected him. 

I rubbed my face and groaned. 

I got up twa9'ait and 9lait est5ara.

I then sat on my bed and just stared blankly at the empty wall in front of my bed, then laid on my bed and just stared at the ceiling. 

Plenty of thoughts crossed my mind, whether it was the right thing to do or not, i knew it was but my negative vibes weren't in agreement. 

I closed my eyes and moments later i dozed. 

It was dark, complete and utter darkness. I walked blankly not knowing where i was going, it felt like my physical self was moving while my mental self had no control.

There was a light fading at the far end of where ever i was, i walked and the light went away but i kept walking, suddenly it was like i tripped, slowly. 

It felt like slow motion my heart started pounding with no support around and i suddenly felt a strong hand holding me , stopping my slow motion fall. I turned around and i swear it looked like m7md.

I opened my eyes and my heart was pounding and i was panting silently. 

I sat up from my bed and examined my surrounding, i was in my room at the same position i was before i dozed. 

What does this dream mean?

Whatever it was that it meant, i had one feeling at that moment and it's acceptance. 

For some reason i feel comfortable about it and the whispering voice in my head said the same.

I texted shaikha telling her about my dream.

Shaikha: "y3ni engol mbrook?"

Me: "don't rush it i still have to tell him" 

Shaikha: "did u tell sara?"

Oh shit i forgot.

Me: "no u tell her :$"

Shaikha: "i already did..."

Me: "well that explains her lecture to me that i haven't opened yet"

Shaikha: "wait wait bswi group lna bs" 

Me: "alright"

And just like that the group was made and i got a full line of cursing from sara about why she's the last to know this. 

Me: "okay okay asfeen al7en shaswi?!"

Sara: "tell him! make it special"

Me: "what do i say i'm nervous"

Shaikha: "how about you call him?"

Me: "madri about that i feel awkward"

Sara: "ee 7da awkward" 

Shaikha: "enzain talk to him flwhatsapp a7san 3shan may7ll your reaction like he always does"

Sara: "eeee hahaha he'll read your mind it scares me"

Me: "hahaha okay okay i'll text him now"

I took deep breath and just stared at his name on whatsapp for probably a minute or more, it felt like hours. 

I hesitated a lot, i was nervous. 

[M7md's POV]

I had a tv in my room so i kept it on, but i wasn't actually watching, it was just a background sound.

I laid on my back and stared at the ceiling and butterflies swarmed inside of me. I hated the feeling.

I'm so stupid i should of waited, how can i show her my face after this.

Her reaction is like the only memory i have of everything in my life. It's like that's all i remember nothing before.

My phone vibrated and i lazily picked it up and saw that i got a text from no one other than hessa herself saying hi. 

Hi? This can't get any awkwarder.

I sat up and texted ahlan.

Making it even more awkwarder.

It had typing... Under her name and my heart raced wondering what's next?

Hessa: "m7md about earlier.."

She texted and stopped. 

My heart beats were off the charts. 

Me: "what about it?" 

Hessa: "i don't know how to start"

Me: "don't know just feel. I don't want to force you into something you don't want and i understand if you said no"

With every word i typed my heart ached, i never felt like that ever since my father abandoned us. 

Hessa: "but i'm saying yes"

What?

What just..

That gave me goosebumps.

No wait, i felt electric shock in my head.

M7md: "you're serious?"

This is almost unbelievable.

Hessa: "no"

What..

Me: "what."

Hessa: "i'm kidding i'm kidding yes yes and a million times yes."

I got up and hurried to my mother. 

I searched for her i her room and living room she wasn't there.

"Yma!" I called yelling.

"Shfeek et9ar5" she yelled back from the kitchen. 

I went to her and kissed her forehead, "shfeek bsmela 3laik"

I looked at her with the hugest smile, i could feel crinkles around my eyes forming.

"Hessa?" She said with a mocking smile. I nodded. 

She sighed and sat on the living room sofa and began searching for hessa's mother number.

I sat next to my mother and i really felt like a child eagerly waiting.  

[Hessa's POV]

My mother called me few minutes after i finally agreed. 

I went for her and she informed that his mother will come tomorrow. 

I felt my face heat up.

"Laish?" I said as if i didn't know.

"Etha ma5ab 9'ni 56btch 7g m7md"

She said looking at me suspiciously.

I just oh-ed. 

"You don't look surprised" she said, 

"Ha hessa?"

"gali and then s7b elkalam w msha and i mentally agreed" i said.

"Mentally?" She asked suspiciously.

"Okay no.. i just told him that i agree few minutes before she called you"

I shyly said.

"Y3ni enty knty m3a?!" She said.

"La wala maknt he came to me straight forward and asked me to marry him just like d3ay did."

I said assuring her nothing was between me and him over and over again until she was finally convinced. 

Tomorrow is going to be one heck of a day. I want it to happen today before tomorrow. But as i know it patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.

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[M7md's POV] 

I reached to a point where i fell for her. I don't know how can i explain it so that it falls to human normal sense. 

I lived my whole life and never fell for anyone, i never loved anyone half as much as i loved my mother.

My heart never jumped at the site of a person like it did to her and deep inside i know she's the one. 

The question is does she?

I want to propose and do it the traditional way, but what if she rejects. What if this becomes the reason why we aren't friends any more?

I have never been nervous and unsure about something as i am now.

I keep typing "hessa marry me" 

Over and over again but i just keep erasing it. 

I went to noura remembering her boyfriend thing, just something to clear my mind off that. 

I knocked and waited till i got permission to enter.

"Ha shtswen?" I greeted, she smiled "adrs" i stood there leaning on her door edge.

"Mn s3ood" i asked and she went freeze and as they locally say "wayha en9fg" 

"A3rf tara goleeli mn w shlon t3rfena" i asked looking serious.

"Hai o5o rfej-" she said and i stopped her "hnoof?" I said

She nodded still in shock wondering how i know all this. 

"A3rfa el9by kan ero7 maylas 3ziz w a3rf e5ta w ahla w a3rf ena 7beebch" i said with a serious smile.

She smiled in shock, "shlon a3oth belah" 

"Lats2len shlon shla magelteli m3a hlwayh" i said playfully cutting the tension.

"Wnt shla mageltly 3n hessa" she replied playfully as if it was an eye for an eye.

"Shd5l hessa ana whya rb3" i said trying not to sound nervous. 

"3yartk latnsa youm 6l3t m3aha yaz3m drasa wrdait et3'ni a3'ani 7b mb 3lai" she said mockingly.

"Latglben elsalfa lagol 7g oboch ha" i threatened playfully.

"Enzain enzain madri 5ft" she said and my face turned serious again.

"5ayfa mn shnw, mhb 7ram el7ub hw bs e9er 7ram lma ynbni 3ala el7ram wla el7b m7ll" i said hating the fact that she was scared in notifying me about it. 

"W ana sm3tch ttklmain m3a fa s2lt 3na, ohwa 9ij e7bch?" I asked.

She shyly smiled, "y3ni shrayk ent?" 

I laughed and mockingly said, "tst7en b3d" 

"M7md!" I heard my mother call. 

"7sabi m3ach b3dain" i said doing the '9bri shwy' hand gesture and left.

I headed downstairs and said "N3m yma" i saw a man standing there.

I know this man, he's my uncle, father's brother. What on earth is he doing here.

I had an angry serious expression, "n3m?" i said having both my hands at my back.

"M7md obok 36ak 3mra ams w katb kl amlaka lk" he said holding the will in his hand.

I looked at it and back at him. 

"Shnw 3n 3yala mn elthanya?" 

I kept a cold formal tone. 

"Maktb shy lhm l2na yhal bs elwrth byt8sm," i was suspicious why will he do that.  

"Enzain, 5l elw9ya 3ndy bagraha wbklmk" i said and he came closer to me. 

"Etrk'ha 3al 6awla ymk" i instructed, i don't know why was i cold to him, it isn't like i despise him or anything. Maybe because he looked a bit like my father. I don't know.  

He kept it and left. Without even a farewell, typical very typical. 

"Allah ysalmk" i said as he slammed the door. "Mama mala da3i hl t9rf" said my mother. 

I just went and took the will and began reading it. From what i understood my father is some oil tycoon and the inheritance i got can get me and my mother our own house, heck a mansion, and cars and i'll still have more than what i need and all i had to do was work in my fathers company and take over his place, basically i'm the heir to the so called throne. 

"Wala zain fakr feena" said my mother, and i chuckled in disgust examining the paper. 

"Yma?" I started, she hummed a yeah, "bachr bnrou7 el5alaf" i instructed. She looked at me confused and i smiled. 

Next morning i woke up and found a text from hessa, "36'am allah ajrk :(" 

i groaned as i woke up, remembering i had to go to the 5alaf, come to think of it how did she know. 

Me: "ajrna w ajrch shdrach?"

Hessa: "hello my family and yours somehow are related words fly around like flies" 

Me: "oh offcourse"

Hessa: "ee barou7 el5alaf b3d el9ala would be nice to meet your family"

Me: "ee same same"

I got up and went to my mothers room she wasn't there i'm going to guess she's down stairs.

I went and washed my face and brushed my teeth and hurried downstairs. 

"Yma!" I yelled, and kissed her forehead, "bsmela 3laich shfeek?" 

She said with a chuckle.

"Yma abi agolch shy" i said and for some reason i felt like a child.

"Gol" she said, "elyoum fl5alaf btkon bnt hnak esmha hessa al-X m3a omha nsait esmha bs chna reem"

"Enzain w b3dain?" She looked at me suspiciously with a smirk.

"Bs chofeha ly elmshkla ma3ndy 9ort'ha bs etshabh shaikha e5t'ha eltaw2am" i said.

"Shaikha 3ndha taw2am?" She asked, "

"89a 6wela bgolch lma nrd" i said,

"Laish enzain shm3na hl bnt" she asked looking to me happily suspicious.

"Enzain baini w bainch hl bnt 7bait'ha w aby a56bha fa t3rfi 3la omha w chthe" i finally said. 

She flashed me a smile, raised her eyebrow and got up. After 9lat el9'hr, she wore her abaya and i wore my thoub. 

I drove to my fathers house and surprisingly i still remember the way. 

I was thinking about how no one bothered to take me for the burial. 

We got there and my mother went to the women funeral, and i went to the mens. My mind was all over what will happen with my mother.

When i entered, i began scanning the room for my uncle to talk to him about the will. 

36'mt allah ajr everyone there and sat in the seat next to him and next to him was a 10 year old i don't know of. 

I saw ryl 5alat hessa and a happy feeling swam inside of me. 

"Hathy o5ok tara esma nasser" my uncle said and the kid had a confused look so did i but i smiled anyways. 

My uncle told me about how i have 2 younger brothers and a sister. I was happy that i had siblings but at the same time i hate the fact that they're step. 

But i stopped the happy family reunion chat and went straight to my point. 

"3n el w9ya ana mwafg bs.." i began quietly not wanting to get attention. 

I had one condition "..maby asht3'l fe shrkt oboi hai mw r3'bty elmst8blya" i didn't want to do anything with him i'll just take whats rightful for mine and leave forever. 

  

It may sound as a selfish act but i'm thinking about my future and how i want it to be. 

"Elw9ya w9ya matgdr et8rr" he said, and for a moment i thought and finally came to a decision.

"Mwafg lakn lma ykbr nasser ohwa ely ystlm elmkan w ba5th 50% mn elarba7" i said, he sighed and said "bs tm" 

I never wanted any of this and looks like my law future will have to wait. 

I however don't know how to run a company and i am not studying business, but i know someone who does and he may be of an assistance. 

i and mother left the funeral, we conversed about what happened in the funeral.

"Chft elbnt" she started, "shrych?" I asked, "jamal w a5lag mashalla" she said.

I looked at her once and back at the road, "kalmteha" i asked again.

"9dfa omha g3dt ymi w g3dna ntklm w 5tht r8mha" she said.

"Y3ni?" I asked filled with joy and happiness.

"Y3ni bat9l w baklmha" she replied with a chuckle. 

I just had a smile and then we reached home. I couldn't contain myself i was like a little child being told he's getting his birthday gift early. 

However, i was afraid.

What if she doesn't agree and i lose her?

What if she doesn't like me the same i do? 

What if this makes things awkward for us?

I threw myself on my bed and sighed a deep sigh and just laid there silently panicking. 

Hours passed by and i stayed the same, then i decided this is of no use and went to inform my mother that lets leave this proposal wait a while. 

I wanted to wait for the right time to come and i'll make sure that time happens this week, and by that i meant tomorrow.

The next day came and i had a lecture with her. The usual sunday lecture, i asked her if i could talk to her privately and that i had something to tell her. Happily she agreed unknowing that i'm actually proposing.

I examined her every reaction around me and most of them indicated that there's a chance she has a thing for me, but i was still nervous. 

I sat in the cafteria with her facing me, we talked about how she dealt with mona's issue and i talked about my past, she was curious and then we became silent. 

I buckled up my courage to ask her. 

"Hessa?" I said barely able to even say her name. She hummed in response. 

I mentally yelled 'marry me' but i wasn't able to say a single word. 

"Shfek?" She asked.

I sighed a deep sigh and finally said, "hessa ttzwjaini?" Her reaction was a mixture of shocked and confused.

At that moment, i knew i shouldn't have said that and i didn't want to know her response. I'm such an idiot. 

So i apologized and left before she had a chance to say anything. 

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Today has been the worst day ever.

First layla, now mona.

After mona went up to her room, my mum sat and made sure that i wasn't that kind of a person to everyone else.

In the car, she asked me if i wasn't with him and she was so considerate, i assured her that i wasn't involved with him in anyway. 

I may have moved on from d3ay and am partially developing likeness towards him and i know that life goes on but it's just far too soon.

When i got home, i told the group that was formed during high school, every single thing that has happened. 

Sara: "el7mdela wl shkr mra9' hai"

Me: " e7raaaj matt9wrain" 

Shaikha: "7ta lw 9ij kan elshy ehya malha sh3'l" 

The boys kept silent while we girls just ranted about the problem, they just kept telling me everything will be fine. My anxiety wasn't going to stop anytime soon, but it kind of calmed.

next day was a weekend and i wanted to do something today to stop me from thinking about mona. 

I texted the group wondering if they wanted to hangout today, they all agreed and we picked watching hunger games 2 in city centre. 

I went and asked my mother whether i could or not. She said "La la twa ams 9ayrtlch salfa 3n el6al3a m3a 9byan" i looked at her in a 'you serious look?'

I shrugged and had a final decision, "yma et3rfen shlon wdeni bait ydty elyoum this has to end may9er chthe an7bs 3shan w7da tafha galat chthba wlkl 9dgha" 

My mother smiled and nodded, i went back to my room and texted them that there's change in plans. 

Shaikha: "shla tknsl?"

Me: "i'll put an end to mona wayd m95t elsalfa"

9gr: "shswat?"

Me: "omi galat la ena they're already talking w i had it, it's like i'm trapped in my own life bsbbha" 

Sara: "w laish omch t'htm what people are saying" 

Me: "okay 9ij ena we shouldn't care what they say bs elsm3a mhma sara and don't care what people say quote doesn't lay on me in this situation"

M7md: "3dl" 

The question now is what will i say, how will i begin, i'm not used to rumours or hate back in my old school everyone loved me. 

I sat over thinking what may or may not happen instead of what i'll say. 

All i know is that i want to make this thought mona sculpted in everyones mind go. No matter what is said about me elsm3a aham shy. 

After a long hour of thinking, i checked the time and it was time people began going to gramma's.

I got ready and left to gramma's, anxiety broke it's way into me. 

I was nervous and still furious. 

I began tapping my feet repeatedly and uncontrollably, "mama bs hdi klshy byn7l al7en" said my mother and i smiled. 

We got there and greeted them, i scanned the place for mona but she was out of sight so far. 

"Shlonch hessa?" Asked gramma, i smiled "el7mdella" 

"Shsma gelty rfejch? M7md?" Asked my aunt, "ee m7md Al-X" i said confidently even though slightly shocked that my aunt is casually saying rfejch and waited for their reaction, something i have learnt from m7md himself. 

They did look like they believed mona, or even partially did. 

"Wee laykon wld maitha" she said and they began talking about her, how her husband tzwj 3laiha and how she is living with her brother. 

To be honest i don't know m7md's life story, "mn maitha?" I said out of curiosity, "et9er bnt 3mt ryl 5altch lulwa" that was confusing but i just nodded. 

Minutes later mona came down with her sister giving me the death stare, i looked at her in disgust. 

Everyone sitting with us felt the tension and it became awkward. 

I buckled up my courage and began. 

"Ela mona golelhm 89ty ana w m7md shklch et3rfeni akthr mni" 

I started and my mother quietly chuckled. 

She looked at me in shock as if she didn't know i had all that courage. 

She kept silence and everyone looked at her. 

I chuckled and said, "9brw 5l t2lf w 3gb el3asha lain trst elkrsha btrwi lkm 89at romeo w juliet" 

I could see their faces and some of them were quietly giggling and i'm guessing i made my point.

I could see mona's face going red

And all i did was give her a taste of her own medicine. 

My mother nudged me and whispered, "bs bs w9'7ty raych" 

She gave me the look and stormed upstairs. 

My grand mother laughed and said, "zain etswen feha ely matst7i" 

I looked at her and gave her an angelic smile. 

"Tara e7na ma9dgnaha ndri mona w swalfha" said one of my aunts.

"Bs b3d elsm3a sm3a lazm n7meha" i said and they all went like "3dl 3dl"

Her sister sat there still laughing and mimicking her reaction.

I'm just so relieved that everyone actually knew the truth without me needing to prove a point in the first place. 

I went back home fully satisfied with how today went like, i texted the group telling them my accomplishment. 

I then went and texted m7md alone, i know it's a bit nosy of me to ask about his private life but we're friends there isn't any harm.

Me: "m7md can i ask you something"

M7md: "akeed"

Me: "umk esmha maitha?" 

M7md: "ee shdrach?"

When he said that i silently gasped, knowing he's part of the family is nice. 

Me: "okay elyoum in the gathering i was told that she's bnt 3mt ryl 5alty" 

M7md: "lulwa 5altch?"

Me: "omg yes"

M7md: "7elw wala mn elahl y3ni" 

Me: "ee ewans elshy" 

He didn't reply for a moment which basically was 10 minutes.

M7md: "hessa bachr elsbt 3ndch shy?" 

Me: "la kmlt emt7anat"

M7md: "zain 7ta ana"

Me: "why asking?"

M7md: "bs bs wla shy" 

I was confused what does he want. 

I hate it when someone gets me all hyped up for something and then just keep me hanging.  

 

I as a curious person won't stop asking until i know what does he want. 

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Next day was an exam day so i went a hour ahead. A force of habit. 

I got there and the first thing i did was enter the cafeteria. The cafeteria is designed in such a way where it seems like a real cafe and when you first enter, on your left theres like a sitting area in an arabian style. 

Layla and her gang were sitting there, so was maryam. It looks like a little creative thinking girls study session.

"Hessaaa ahlaan" greeted layla, it's creeping me out i swear. I gave them a big smile and greeted them all with a cheek kiss greet. 

"7yach m3ana" she said, and i sat facing maryam and next to layla.

With us were 2 other girls haya and mo9'y. They all sat and revised then layla said "shrykm 3gb elemt7an n6l3?" They all agreed but i didn't.

"Laish el7beeb mayr9'a" she said playfully and i instantly hated her. 

I looked at her in a confused way almost disgust. "La shd5l 7beeb brd elbait oboi besafr elyoum" 

I lied but it had to be done. 

"L79'a 7beebch m7md mw? Chfnakm fe cine ams" they all paid attention to the conversation and maryam looked confused. 

"La shd5l ra7w drasa ana knt barou7 bs mar9't omi galat mabtdrsoun" said maryam in defence. 

"Wee y3ni omkm 3ady 3ndha t6l3on m3a 9byan" she asked with a mocking chuckle. That's it i'm suffocating this layla girl. 

"La akeed mw 3ady ay 9by, m7md w ana rb3 mn elthanweya w e9er wld 5alat maryam a3t8d mafe mshkla fl mw9'oo3" i stormed at her. 

"Enzain enzain magelna shy hdi" she said again with a chuckle and m7md entered. He stood there in the entrance and looked at us. 

Maryam gestured me to get up and we went for him, we greeted him and we headed to the library where peace and quiet is all you can hear. 

Apparently maryam texted him to come here and i thank her for that.

"Shfekm knkm 6al3en mn hosha" he asked laughing at us. I and maryam looked at each other and explained to him what happened. 

"Ll7en el3alam m9mm ena ana w enty m3a b39'?" He said laughing as if he remembered high school days. 

"Shdrani 38ool mree9'a el7mdela wlshkr" said maryam and i laughed. 

"Bs bs allahm lashmata 5l ndrs shwy" he said.

After the exam which i didn't give my 100% as well but did good, i went back home. 

[Layla's POV]

We were at Starbucks sitting and trying to enjoy my after exam coffee, "Uff 8hrtni chfty shloun etklmni?" I said angrily, who the hell does she think she is to storm at me and leave. 

"Bs 5l twali latnzlen nfsch lha" said haya, i chuckled in disgust and decided to text mona.

Me: "mona 9ij m3a b39' ohma twha galat" 

Mona: "7lfai hahaha knt 7asa"

Me: "t5yli tmt et3and w etgol la la w fl a5er lw etchofen wayha awal ma dsh fazt la" 

Mona: "y3ni m7md malga a7sn mnha" 

Me: "shdrani t8hr wala" 

Mona: "geltlch mat9dgen" 

Me: "ahlch ydroun enha m3a wa7d?"

Mona: "la shkla 7ta omha w oboha"

Me: "elsakt 3n el7g shai6an a5rs lazm ydroun"

Mona: "ama?"

Me: "ee mabt5sren shy"

Mona: "hahahaha okay 3yal" 

[Hessa's POV]

I sat in my room on my computer skyping shaikha.

"How's university with you?" I asked, "it's tough as a first year, foundation b3d mw first year" she said.

"Hows yours?" She asked, "well ams i went with m7md to cine cafe and studied w b3dain et9lt feni w7da esmha layla madri mn wain lha r8mi w elyoum hl layla thei g3dt ts2lni as2la etha ana m3a m7md narfztni" i said.

"Wee shfeha thy shla nrfztch?" She said, "gamat ttklm knha tstahz2 w9'3ha may6mn a7s wraha shy" i said.

"La la w7da f9'oolya enty et3rfen lma elsalfa feha m7md tlgainha m3jba wla shy w m7tra" she said reminding me of school days, and she's probably right, this layla girl is my last concern.

My mum knocked on my door and informed me that we'll be going to grand mothers house.

I shrugged knowing mona will be there, "lazm?" I said, "la wala?" She said, i sighed, she laughed and she left.

"Uff mali nfs nas, i should go and get ready i'll talk to you on whatsapp" i said, she laughed and said "okay."

I got up and got ready wore a sleeveless black and white checker blouse and my trusty black genie. 

I wore that charm bracelet along with other bracelets and wore my abaya and veil. 

We left to gramma's which was the usual family gathering spot, i sat next to mum and everyone was here.

They were talking about someones upcoming marriage and i just sat there lost in translation. 

Mona was giving me stares which creeped me out, i was mentally yelling 'stop looking at me' 

"Enshala bnatna b3d yn56bon w nfr7 fehm" said gramma, "hessa btn56b" said mona, i had a huge question mark on my face and a what the hell expression.

"Btn56b?" Said my mother while looking at me and i shook my shoulders indicating i had no clue.

"Ee ehya galatly 7beebha by56bha" she confidently said, and everyone looked at me in shock.

I felt my face heat up, what the heck is wrong with this girl, how can she bluntly say such lie in front of the whole family.

"L79'a l79'a mta geltlch 3ndy 7beeb twa 56eby mtwafi shnw mast7y 3ala wayhy?" I said hoping that i have made my point. 

"Latshal5en ams 6al3a m3a" she said and they all gasped in shock, i wanted to cry what the heck. 

"Ee ams 6l3t m3a wa7d bhdf drasa w b3dain enty malch sh3'l fe bnty ana a3rf hl 9by w el7mdela m7tram w e5af rba w adri bnty malha bswalf 7beeb ma 7beeb" said my mother in defence shutting mona up.

"W b3dain 3aib etshwhen sm3t elnas ashkra jdami w jdamha" she added. "Wala mw mshklty etha bntch chthe" she said while getting up and heading upstairs. 

I wanted to get up and pull her from her hair forcing her to sit on her knees and wait till my mother was done with her conversation but she just disrespectfully left. 

Leaving everyone thinking whether she was right or not, and i just sat there having a calm anxiety attack, hoping that everyone knows the truth without me needing to explain. 

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[M7md's POV] 

I couldn't stop smiling, she probably thinks i look like an idiot but i didn't care. 

After we left i headed back home feeling so delighted. I know my gift is unusual but i liked it. Sara came up with the idea, i just agreed.

"Why yin yang?" I remembered her words and i wanted to answer but i couldn't i don't think it's time.

Let me be honest here, being around her gives me a weird happy feeling, butterflies like how i think they call it. I don't know if that's what love is like, but i like it.

I sighed in relief and began humming tunes, preferably i was in a great mood. When i entered my home i greeted mother and uncle while singing 'enti ajmal' by Khalid Abdulrahman as if i was serenading my mother.

My mother was giving me confused looks and so did uncle, "3sa dom hls3ada" said my mother, "Ameen" i replied and kissed them on their foreheads and headed upstairs. 

I passed my cousin noora room first in order to reach my room and i heard her talk, it was one sided so i guess she's on her phone. I know it's wrong but i couldn't help it. I slowly walked towards her room door and listened.

I heard her say "La shd3wa" and "s5eef" and a few shy giggles. 

I know that she's at an age where teenage love is in the air, and i knew the person she was talking to was a guy perhaps her boyfriend. 

To prove my theory, I knocked the door and i heard her whisper "bye b3den aklmk", "tf9'l" she shouted.

I entered and i could see her face had a mixture of nervous, freaked out, panic and i wasn't going to lecture her. 

"Sh5bar bnt 3mi?" I said trying to sound as if i heard nothing. She stuttered while trying to put up a perfect sentence, one i know she's nervous around me and second because of well, the call. 

"El-el7mdella" she replied, i just looked at her for a moment "tbi shy?" She asked, i trusted noora and i didn't like the fact she hid this from me. "B3dain bagolch" i said with a smile and left. I just wanted to give her anticipation and curiosity to what i wanted to say. 

I trust her but not the guy, i don't want her to be in some temporary relationship just to fill a guy's pleasure needs.

I know it isn't my business to interfere in her life, but as a person that has grown up around her i grew being protective over her. A brother like if i may say. 

I'll start with the mysterious boyfriend investigation after my midterms. Right now i don't want anything to ruin a perfectly kept day. 

[Mona's POV]

I wasn't in cine cafe but there were people i knew there, they've seen hessa and m7md and they say that they seemed pretty tight. 

I hate hessa, i swear like she made everyone think she's a perfect angel and got m7md as a ring on her finger.  

"Alo ga3da aklmch" my sister reem waved her hand in front of my face to get my attention and i snapped. 

"Shfeech?" She asked, "wla shy" i said, she threw a pillow at my face and started laughing "ll7en etfakren fe hessa?" She said.

"A5eh fa9'ya?" I replied and took my blackberry and texted Layla she's one of the girl that has seen her. 

Me: "Lulu abech et9eren rb3 m3a hessa"

Layla: "wee g9ori?" 

Me: "bs chthe aby a3rf etha m3a b39' wla la"

Layla: "5ywalon shlch fehm m3a elwyh" 

Me: "bs l2na twa 56ebha mat amda 9arat m3a wa7d thani" 

Layla: "7lfi m56oba kanat?"

Me: "wala mat mn sara6an 3shan che aby a3rf feni f9'ool" 

Layla: "wee w3lya enzain enzain uf" 

Me: "b36ech r8mha" 

Layla: "ok"

So i went over to my contacts and gave her hessa's number. 

[Hessa's POV]

I was just revising what i had studied with m7md and my phone rang.

It was a number i didn't know of, i left it ringing for a while and then i decided to answer. "Alo?" I said, "halla hessa ana layla m3ach fl creative" said this layla girl. 

"Hala layla ee 3rftch" i replied she sits two seats behind me, and i remember she was at cine cafe.

"Bklmch 3n el9f7at flktab shnw ely lazm tn7l? etha knty msh3'oola bklmch 3ala elwhatsapp"

She said.

"La la 3ady w a9'n kl el9f7at lazm tn7l bs hai 7g elfinal lat7aten hm ktab ma ktab" i said.

She laughed and said "okay 3yal shkran w bltwfeeg" we gave our farewell and hung up.

Where the heck did she get my number.. Layla is an active student in class she's very bright, i am surprised she came to me for help.

Come to think of it, i remember she was giving me looks of disgust back in cine cafe when i was with m7md. 

Somethings fishy here.. 

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This chapter is dedicated to @Ray49_ for always making my day without realising it❤️

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I told our driver to step on it.

I have to get there before my mother makes things worst than they already are.

She should've called, she should've waited, she should've not left. 

The peace i built up on the way back home is slowly falling apart. My legs started uncontrollably shaking, i was getting more nervous each second.

I got there and i quickly rushed to the scene. I barged in and she was standing right in the middle of the entrance.

They all now had their attention on me. I was angry, furious, an erupting volcano. I know she was worried, no probably worried sick about me but she could call and text we are no longer in the stone age. Smart phones exist now. 

She turned to me and she herself was angry, but i had far more reasons to be so.

"Wain knty?" She burst, "lat9ar5en 3laiha" yelled abdulrahman and his father shushed him. 

"Fljam3a wl shwar3 z7ma yma" i tried to sound as polite as possible as she's my mother and i wasn't raised to say a comeback in a rude way towards people older than me, however i still had the angry sense in my comeback, i couldn't hide it.

"Jdami" she ordered, i nodded and did proceed to leave but i stopped. 

Something in me stopped wanting to leave. I wanted answers so badly and i wanted them now. 

"L79'a" i said as i stopped and turned to face the once happy family plus my dearest mother. "Laish 5shaitw 3na?" 

"Mw 7ztch hessa" my mother said as she tried lightly pushing me out. 

"La 7zt'ha" said my real father, and i was surprised that he even began with anything.

My mother looked at him terrified of what else he might say and i just patiently waited for him to do so.

"Tben et3rfen laish? Ana bagolch laish" he paused which seemed like he was recollecting memories.

"Lma enty w shaikha kntw thlath ash'hr-" he paused a second " la la 5lna engol 6 ash'hr ll7en fe b6n omkm, abdulrahman twa 4 sneen, omch ma3jbt'ha 3esht elfgr w tbi ryal ynthr 3leeha mn th'hb w almas, mahmha 7b ma 7b-" 

I looked at my mother and she closed her eyes shut and lowered her head, and i just listened and focused on every word he said.

"B3d wladtkm eb thlath ash'hr 6lbt el6lag w galatly el3eesha m3ai matn6ag w galat bta5th w7da mn eltaw2am w bttzwj wa7d 3'ni, bdon ay kalam thani 6lagt'ha w 5thtch mni" he said and sighed knowing how this has hurt him in the past. 

Being a single father to two children a 4 year old and a 3 months baby, being abandoned by a woman he once loved. 

I looked at him waited for more but guess that was all he had to say. 

I looked at my mother and she just stood there and left back to the car.

Ashamed? Embarrassed? Shocked?

I really don't know what is going inside this woman's mind.

I went after her, i don't know what to call it but i think mother daughter instinct. She slammed the door shut and stared at the seat in front of her and said nothing.

Just like i heard my father's side i'm more curious about my mother's side of the story. "Mama no matter what happens i won't leave you" i said softly holding her hands. 

She smiled and looked at me and i see a tear slipping from her eyes. 

"I didn't cheat on your father, i loved your father i was just blinded by greed and luxury" i took my hand away and just stared at her, she sighed and continued.

"this man you currently call your father for the past 18 years proposed to me before your father but i didn't agree even though he was going to shower me with gold and love, when abdulrahman was born i was alright with my living state but when you were born i started re-evaluating my life"

she squeezed her eyes for a minute which seemed to me as if the memories she's bringing back weren't meant to be brought back and i don't blame her.

"We started arguing a lot and i forced myself to hate him. It's a horrible thing to do but i wanted him to leave me but he didn't-" her voice cracked each time she spoke.

"Then i got my divorce when he found out i wanted to marry another man thinking i was cheating and i got to keep you-" i stopped her and said, "why?" She looked at me not confused, 

"the man that you currently call father can't bare a child, that's why i got to keep you i just changed your last name to match with his and buried this secret along with the memories and never spoke of it"

"wdna elbait" i instructed the driver.

I didn't want to know further, i'm currently unsure if because he can't bare a child she took me with her or because she really wanted to keep one of us. 

We kept silence throughout the ride back home. I guess you can say words couldn't describe the situation so silence was our only solution. 

When we reached home, i headed straight to my room and wanted to drown in my sleep. Sleeping has always been my escape from reality. 

Instead i laid there and drowned in my thoughts and the voices that once were whispers are now the loudest i could hear.

A river of questions invaded the peace i built again, what will happen now that i know? What about this man i call my father? What will my mother do? 

All those questions i had served with negative answers. I'm not a negative person but this situation activated that side in me. 

I hugged the mini pillow i had on my bed, and kept saying "no no things will get better" besides my step father is barely home i won't worry about freedom in here. 

I got a text from m7md "shaikha galat omch kanat 3ndhm sh9ar?" I didn't feel like replying, so i left the message be and dozed off. 

Next morning was a study leave so i began revising as i have already studied everything over and over again. 

I checked my phone and decided to stop ignoring m7md, "it was chaos" 

I didn't get a reply he probably was asleep or something.

Hours later he called, my heart was pounding i was nervous, should i pick or should i not. 

I finally answered, i coughed to clear my throat and he started, "9ba7 el5air" his morning voice was a mixture of deep and raspy, i smiled and replied "9ba7 elnoor" 

"Ha sh9ar?" He asked, and i began telling him everything from the time i left university until i was back home with my mother. 

"Kana msalsal" was his reply, i chuckled, we kept silent for a moment and then he asked "tben ndrs m3a b39' wtha tben maryam btyy?" 

I thought of it for a moment "m7md mdri i'll ask mu-" i paused he chuckled, "bs mala da3y" he said. 

I really wanted to go and i know my mother won't mind. he's just a friend and she knows him. 

I just had d3ay in mind and then my problems, "you know what okay ybeli t3'yer jaw" i finally decided.

I'm not sure if this is going to be a mistake or really will be t3'yer jaw, but i just rolled with it.

"Wain tben?" He asked, i hummed in thought and then decided cine cafe that's in Reem centre fl riffa3.

"Bs 3yal tm elsa3a w7da?" he said, i agreed and we hung up. 

I got up to take "permission" from my mother knowing she'll agree. 

I knocked on her door and entered.

"6l3 oboi?" I asked she was surprised that i still call him father, but old habits die hard. 

"Ra7 elsh3'l" she replied, "enzain mama agdr arou7 cine cafe m3a m7md w maryam bndrs" i asked.

"Mnu maryam b3d?" She said with a chuckle, "bnt 5alt m7md m3ana fl m7a9'ra" i said with chuckle as well. 

"Okay bs latt25rain" she said i went and kissed her forehead and checked the time and 2 hours till 1, but time flies by quickly.

I got ready and left to cine cafe. 

I scanned the place he was sitting there at the corner of the place, "ahlan wain maryoum?" I greeted.

"Omha mar9't" he said and i looked at him with a suspicious smile as i sat. He laughed and said, "la wala mar9't" 

We began studying, and as time passed we saw familiar people from our lecture enter the place and giving us stares like we were doing a sin of some sort. 

"5l ywalon w rkzi fldrasa enzain shnw el techniqat mra thanya?" He said trying to get me back to focus. 

we were almost done, "hessa?" M7md began as he placed a small golden box. I moved my eyes from him to the box and back at him, "shnw thee?" I asked with a smile.

"Adri mt25r bs hathy hdyat 3eed meladch" he said and if i wasn't mistaken he was a tad bit shy. 

I did a small yay squeal and thanked him, i don't like to go like 'you shouldn't have' a gift is a gift for a reason and he probably worked hard in choosing it.

"B6leha aby achof wayhch" he said almost begging, i chuckled and opened it. I was surprised at his choice of gift. 

Not sad surprised but really happy surprised, he got me a silver plated charm bracelet, no charm on it.

"No charms?" I said, he began searching in his pocket and took out a small yin yang charm. I was smiling but confused. 

"This will be your first" he said, i gave him the bracelet and he attacked his charm to it. 

"Why yin yang?" I asked as i struggled to wear the bracelet on. 

"Nothing special" he said with a smile and i know it does have a special meaning to him but i just went with the flow. 

I don't know what's up with m7md lately and i won't deny liking the feeling of it. So i sat there and smiled at him as we wrapped up our study session. 

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I left my mothers room and rushed to mine and just shut my door and locked it.

What the hell just happened. 

One day i'm the only child, the other i have a twin sister and a big brother of no one other than abdulrahman and shaikha. I checked the time it was only 6 and i'm thankful that i have already studied. I sat on my bed and anxiety attack kicked in. 

I started breathing heavily because of the anxiety attack, and my heart feels like it's going to burst. 

"Hessa b6li elbab" my mother repeatedly said as she knocked on my door, i just sat there on my bed hugging my knees trying to let what just happen sink into me and quietly sob.

I'm not sure why was i crying, is it because i have been lied to? Or is it because my emotions are in a mess?

I shrugged, and decided i wanted to go to shaikha's, i didn't feel like home. I got up and unlocked my door, my mother looked at my tearful face and pulled me for a hug, i didn't resist nor did i hug back.

"I had a reason to do that mw mne wl6reej" she said after releasing me from her hug. 

I didn't want to reason with her nor talk, my mentality wasn't allowing me to open up a conversation, i just wanted to see my real father and my siblings that i have been forbidden  to see, let alone been told that died in an accident. 

"Mama y9er abat 3nd shaikha?" I said, and just stared at her wanting no further than a yes or no reply. 

She sighed, "3gb elemt7anat"

I stayed silent for a while, "ana darsa w aby abat 3ndha elyoum mmkn" i coldly asked. I know my reaction towards this is a little over-rated but i was furious from her and i believe she noticed it as well.

"Okay ely yry7ch" she said and went back to her room. I closed my door and sighed more of a relief sigh and began packing my bag and called shaikha.

"Shaikha 3ady abat 3ndkm wla emt7anat enty?" I asked

"Hessa shfeech ee 3ady my exams are next month sadly" she repliedz

"Okay i'm coming lain w9lt bagolch klshy" i said and just hung up before she said anything else cause i know she'll shower me with questions. I wasn't ready just yet. V

When i got there, i was greeted by her mother, "shfeech?!" She said and i could hear everyone else stand up and move towards the door.

My eyes stopped flowing by now but only traces of tears can be seen, i scanned the room and i saw shaikha's father, my real father i began crying again and i automatically hurried to him and hugged him. It felt right, i felt safe.

My veil began falling off. when i broke the hug i wiped my tears and was out of words. I looked at my real father and he smiled at me, a heart warming smile. I smiled back.

"Shsalfa?" Asked shaikha with a huge question mark on her face. 

"Shaikha hathy e5tch" he said.

[Shaikha's POV]

"L79'a shnw?" I said, what is going on here. It felt weird.

We all sat down on the sofa's and hessa sat next to me. 

"Mama lazm engloch shy" my father started. I just looked puzzled.

I looked at abdulrahman and he was staring at the floor just listening. 

"Mama hessa e5tch" he paused, "ana oboch w om-" i stopped him  

"Omy ga3da ymk" i didn't want to picture anyone else as my mother. 

My father looked at me because i just stopped him, "asfa" i said while lowering my head.

"Ana barou7 elmaylas byouni ryayel" he said and left following him abdulrahman. I pissed him off i know it. 

I just sat there facing hessa, many thoughts ran in my mind, one of them she's my sister, she has always has been my sister. This is crazy. 

"Yma knty et3rfen?" I asked and she nodded. 'wow' i thought.

"Wai3 enty e5ty" i playfully said and nudged her shoulder. We both laughed. 

After dinner we headed upstairs to sleep and hessa had an exam tomorrow.  

"Hows she like?" i said while lying on my bed next to hessa. I just felt the urge of knowing her, hessa never spoke of her nor do i visit them like she does to us, "Bossy, loving sometimes, cold sometimes, always out" she said then paused and sighed, "i just can't believe she hid this big thing from me"

"Like wise, why hide it, what's wrong with just saying it and i can't believe abdulrahman knew and i.." i said and shrugged.

"The man i call my father isn't even my father" she paused again, "i should of stayed, i should of talked about it further more rather than leave" 

"Yeah you're an idiot when you freak out" i said trying to make this subject cheerful. 

"Thank you for your honesty" she replied with a chuckle and then she slept, but i couldn't. 

[Hessa's Mother POV]

That's what i feared.

That she'll one day find out and leave me. She wouldn't find out if we didn't move back here. 

I knew from the day we left dubai that we'll confront anyone of them and it will get bad. I sighed while lying on my bed alone thinking of all the possible things that will happen.

I brushed those negative thoughts away and all i thought of was getting her back here nothing else. 

[Hessa's POV]

Exam went well, didn't feel like i gave my 100% but i did well. 

Knowing that my driver will be taking me back home made me feel petrified in an anxious way. 

I don't want to go yet i badly want to because i'm curious about this whole situation. Good thing i got study leave tomorrow.  

I sat in the cafeteria alone waiting for the driver to inform me of his arrival and in came m7md. 

I had a happy feeling going inside just seeing him and i smiled, he was with a group of guys who i wasn't familiar with any of them.

He probably excused himself and came to greet me. "Ha sh9ar?" He said as he sat on the sofa i was on.

"Your theory is right. Ana e5t shaikha w abdulrahman" i said somehow shyly because his friends were staring from where they were seated. I don't know it just felt awkward. 

He sighed in a shruggy way, "shfeek?" I asked mockingly.

He chuckled and smiled a dimpled smile "wla shy" and we just stared at each other for a moment which instantly made it even more awkwarder, i could feel my face heating up and from his face expression of mock, i know i blushed.

My phone rang and saved the day, i knew the driver arrived so i excused myself and left. That was the weirdest thing ever, but i am forever thankful to him.

after a long ride back home because of heavy traffic on the highway. I had the chance to clear my mind, organise my thoughts and calm myself down. 

I thought of every possible question i wanted answers for and every possible answer i might get and after a long time reasoning with myself. 

I reached home, i pushed our big house door and focused on nothing but where my mother was. 

She wasn't in her room nor anywhere in this house. 

Where is this woman?

I got a text from shaikha,

"Your mother is here asking for you"

I mentally face palmed myself and left back to shaikha's house.

Chaos is about to begin.

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All this information i got yesterday should wait a while i should focus on my midterms, but then again i have been studying non-stop. 

I laid on my bed with my history book on my face. I kept remembering what m7md has told me and how this may or may not be a life changer. 

I shrugged and got up, I went downstairs for a quick snack.

I opened the fridge and found an ice-cream box, i did my excited quiet dance and took it up with me. 

On my way my father left his room. 

He wore wearing a grey suit and red tie. I was taking few spoons of the chocolate ice-cream so i had the spoon in my mouth and i formed a huge smile and went to hug him. 

"Ahlan blshaikha" he said as he hugged back. "Wain btrou7 hl7za?" I asked still eating the ice-cream. 

"Sh3'l baba" he said as he headed downstairs holding his business bag. 

I sighed and entered my room, same old thing. 

I sat on my bed and kept my history book open and just ate ice-cream.

It has always helped me clear my mind. Yep ice-cream is my meditation.

My mother knocked on my door and entered she had a shower towel on her head, "ha tad--" she stopped and mentally face palmed herself. 

"Btmtnen mn kthr elakl bsch ice-cream" she said leaving my room, i got up and rushed behind her.

"Yma aby aklmch fe mw9'oo3" i said stopping her from leaving and forcing her to sit on my bed.

"shu balach enty" she tried resisting but i was firm in my order. 

"Abdulrahman" i said, just that and i can see her facial expression changing. M7md has instructed me to do that and tell him how was her reaction, he would know and realise that this is enough to reason with his deduction. 

"Never mind" i said with a smile and she looked at me in confusion and took my ice-cream away and left. 

I shrugged and took my phone to call m7md and tell him about what has happened. 

"Y3ni Mabt5len elwa7d ydrs?" He greeted, "Hello to you too i suppose" i replied. "Sh9ar?" He asked.

"She looked shocked and nervous do you think it links?" I asked.

He hummed in thought and then said, "mmkn ykoun rd f3lha mn ay shy thani" he makes sense but what else can possibly be the reason. 

"Wait what if it is" i said and spaced out, if my current father wasn't my father i shouldn't be showing my hair, by hiding this big thing from me my mother is creating a huge sin for me. 

"What if?" He asked, "m7md ana mt7jba, y3ni lw ely al7en asme oboi mw oboi m7rm 3laih ychofni mkshofa, heck i wear tank tops in front of him"

"Confront your mother, this is serious" he said and i could hear his serious tone rise. He's right, this is serious and we hung up.

I was nervous about this, i didn't know how i'll be starting the conversation. I took a deep breath and headed over to my mothers room.

I knocked twice and entered, 

"Mama?" I said, she hummed yeah, as she blow dried her hair. 

I just stood there not knowing how to start, i was mentally starting the conversation but my physical self failed to say anything.

"Ha mama shfech?" She said setting aside the blow dryer. I took a deep breath and finally said, "mama oboi el7ali mw oboi el9ijy 97?"  

"Mynona?" She said with a chuckle.

"Mama ana mw yahl" i replied. 

Her face showed no emotion other than fear and shock. She sighed and tried to say a word but couldn't.

"It's true isn't it?" I said, and she nodded. I was surprised at her reply, the nod is enough to prove m7md's deduction.

"Laish 5shaity 3ni, mama tdren eni mt7jba w tdren may9er ryal 3'reeb echofni mkshofa" i started raising my voice, "are you even my mum?" I said, she got up slapped me. 

I froze, what is it with people and slapping me. I didn't burst in tears like i would but a tear fell out. 

I have never been hit by my mother, ever, this is shocking maybe i deserved it, but again why did i?

"Ee mw oboch ert7ty? bs ana omch w e7trmy nfsch m3ai" she said now yelling at me.

"W abdulrahman?" I said almost whispering in shock, "o5och w shaikha e5tch mn omoch w oboch" 

What.

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