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I did a little investigation on Abdulrahman for a whole week and got nothing out of it and asking him wasn't an option. 

I left my room for a little snack.

I heard my mother talk, her voice was a bit faint coming from their room, so i stuck my ear on the door to eavesdrop.

"May9er en5sh 3nha lazm et3rf" i heard her say. "La la mw al7en" i heard my father say. 

What are they..

"shtswen?" I jumped and turned around, it was my brother.

I kept my index finger on my lips shushing him up. "Tara 3aib ytsm3on" he said completely inconsiderate about my need of silence. 

I stuck my tongue out for him and headed downstairs, i didn't protest or anything i know he won't rat on me. 

I went in the kitchen and started fixing me peanut butter and banana sandwich. I'm the kind of person that i daydream when i do anything, specially cooking my body just seems to automatically do something and my mind is just out of reality. 

I was thinking about my parents conversation, i'm no detective or anything but i know who has that characteristic and may help me out.   

I took my food up and called hessa, she wasn't who may help me but she can be of an assistance. 

"Hello" she said in a happy tone.

"Ahlan i have updates" i said,

She hummed yeah, "knt ray7a basweli akl-" she giggled, "anyways, i over heard my parents talk about me" i said.

"What kind of conversation?" She asked, "well, my mother was saying something about that i should know shy and my dad disagreed" i replied. 

"That's not a normal thing" she said, we kept silence for a moment and i proposed a thought, "shrych engol 7g m7md he's good fe hl ashya" she didn't reply for a moment and then sighed, "bs our information isn't enough like okay bngola ur brother said this and then a week after your parents said this, it links up somehow but it isn't enough" 

I chuckled, she obviously doesn't know m7md well.

"You have no idea what m7md can do" i said, "what do you mean?" She asked.

"Dude m7md is like sherlock holmes or something he's good at this stuff" i said while chuckling. 

She sighed and said "Okay tomorrow i have my last class with him so i'll talk to him about it."

I know she's hesitating and isn't sure about that, i understood it from her sigh. "You're sure? I can talk to him myself"

"No no i can talk to him it's fine" 

She said and we then hung up. 

[Hessa's POV] 

I have been ignoring m7md at university ever since d3ay passed away, i don't know how i'll be talking to him now.

The next day came and i went to my last lectures before midterms start, and then i headed to the library knowing m7md will be there. He sits in the same table all the time. 

When i got to the library i searched for him and there he was. 

Without any hesitation i went and sat in front of him. 

He was reading a book on law i'm not sure. He lifted an eyebrow and i just sat there feeling awkward. 

This was a mistake i know i shouldn't have done this. I feel weird. 

He looked at me and back into his book. I just smiled trying to ease the tension. I remember when d3ay passed away he was there for me but i pushed him away. 

He kept a serious face and didn't react to my smile. This is going to be a hard task. He continued reading his book. I could feel people's eyes on us. 

"Hey" i said trying to get his attention, but failed miserably. I shrugged knowing that he's giving me the silent treatment. 

"Ignore me as long as you want but i-" i paused as he lifted his eye to meet mine but still held a serious face. I always found that a very attractive feature in him. 

"I need your help" i said and when i said it he gave me a confused look it almost feels like disgust. 

I realised that what i said felt like 'wgt elm9al7 tjek elklab mshtaga' and i felt embarrassed. 

I lowered my head, and felt my face heat up. He chuckled and said "amri"

I lifted my head and smiled.

"Tathkr mn sna youm 5alaf 3ziz?" 

He hummed yeah and just locked his eyes with mine and completely focusing on every word i say. 

"Well on our birthday last week her brother just wished me a happy birthday and i haven't told him when it is, and yesterday she over heard her parents talk about how it is about time they told her something" i told him and he for a moment spaced out and then sighed. 

"Shnw tbon mni bl9'b6?" He questioned, i looked at him in confusion and lifted an eye brow. He isn't serious right, i thought.

"Rayk flmw9'oo3 ya79'i" i said trying to sound humorous and loosen the tensed environment. He chuckled and kept silence for a while. 

He shut his book and set it aside, "tathkren lma geltlch gari 3n shy chthe?" I nodded. 

"Fe 89'ya mn chm sna azwaj byt6lgon w e5tlfw 3n mn ely byrbi taw2am fa galaw kl wa7d ya5th wa7d shay chthe" he said. 

"Are u saying it applies on me and shaikha?" I asked. 

"30%" he said. 

This was shocking but it couldn't happen, that isn't possible.

"Bs shloun ana esm el3ayla 3'air it doesn't make sense" i said.

"It does if your mother married a man before you got your passport, CPR and so on" he said.

"Is it even legal?" I said.

"No but there is also another possibility that she changed your last name and that has happened many times" he said.

I giggled and said "okay okay your deduction makes sense now you're like conan" he just chuckled and bowed his head. 

If what he's saying is possible, or is what is actually happening then i should crave it out of my mother whether she liked it or not. 

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I woke up. Well mentally i did, but physically i was idle. I suppose that i no longer laid on the ground anymore. I felt a movement in the place i was kept in. 

I slightly moved but winced at the throbbing pain i had on my head which might have been caused after my impact to the ground.

I felt a soft hand on my shoulder and from the scent i knew it was my mother, but she said nothing. 

I slowly tried to open my eyes, so i could know where i was, but i was blinded by the spotlight above me. 

I winced once to show my dis-comfort the light caused, and the soft hands where no longer at spot. 

Slowly the light dimmed down making them as if they were there but hardly bright. 

I finally was able to open my eyes but the throbbing headache i had hasn't become any better. 

I slowly scanned the room and if my memory doesn't fail me it was a hospital room.

I tried to get up but felt nauseous and just slowly rested my head back to where it last was. "Mama latt7rkain goleeli shnw tben" 

I'm completely aware i was at the hospital as i felt the needle in my hand attached to the feeder or in arabic 'm3'thy'

 Hospital..

That's where i last saw d3ay. That's where he died. I felt a lump come up my throat but i swallowed it. I closed my eyes i just wanted to rest. 

He's in a better place now. 

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A month past since d3ay passed away. I have been distant from everyone. Shaikha, m7md, sara, 9gr, my mum. Everyone. 

All i focused on was my studies and my duties towards God. Nothing matters. I felt shallow and empty.

I never thought that loving a person would cause so much pain like this. 

My mother considered a therapist she assumed i was depressed.

So if i was, it doesn't matter.

Even if i was healed and i moved on i don't think i can love again. 

Two weeks left till midterm so all i did was study the same pages over and over again. 

I heard a knock on my door which interrupted the whispering voices in my mind. "Mama shaikha hne" she said.

I gave a confused look in my face and thought 'why the hell is she here'

I got up to greet her but she entered instead, Barged in to be exact. 

"There's a door for a reason" i coldly said. She looked at me and i could clearly see that she isn't here for a fun time. 

I stood in my place next to my bed and she approached me. I calmly breathed to avoid feeling or looking nervous. She stood before me for a moment and then slapped me. 

She slapped me and showed no emotion, i froze in my place for a while and i didn't let a tear out. 

[Shaikha's POV]

Gosh did that feel good. She deserved every bit of that slap.

She looked at me in complete shock and i just mockingly chuckled.

"Leave" she hissed quietly.

"No i came here for a reason and i'm leaving when i'm done" i said.

She slowly sat back on her bed but i just stood there. "What the heck happened to you" i started. 

"My personal issues is non of your business thankyou" she said and oh did i have the urge of slapping her one more time, but i held my anger. 

"This is your life now?" I said and she just shrugged at me. 

"What you're doing to yourself is wrong. heck hessa it's been a month mb zain chthe what's the point of distancing yourself from everyone else because one human being passed away" i said knowing how much my words may hurt her. 

"He may be one person but-" i cutted her "One person after another dies every day hessa. When 3ziz left i wasn't like that because i know he wants me to be happy whether he's with us or not" 

i know she's completely blank about what 3ziz was to me and only knows a few things. 

"3ziz wasn't your fiancé this is completely different" she said, thinking that just because he's titled as fiancé he's suddenly the world. 

"Gosh hessa you're so thick" i said and she looked at me in total shock by my words and just before she said a word i started again. 

"Fiancé or not, life still goes on you aren't dead. al7en et9len w tgrain 8r2an laish? I'm not telling you this isn't good this is freakin amazing but you're blinded by a love that no longer exists." 

I paused to sigh "i was told when 3ziz died that things happen for a reason, i wasn't sure what sort of reason is it and i still don't, but this is like a puzzle that is missing a whole bunch of pieces, those pieces that are scattered all over the path you walk on in your own life"

i know i sounded deep and i always do when i give advices, i can see that hessa's hard head was starting to loosen up a bit. 

"Maybe d3ay isn't the one you were meant to live your whole life with" i said as i sat next to her.

"Then why did i get engaged? Why did i love him?" She murmured.

"This is all a plan god wrote for your life, and maybe it happened so we'd have this conversation right now" i said and she hugged me and i could hear her weep, so i hugged her back.

After a long chat i had with her about everything she's missing which seemed like forever i went back home. I know i was going to be lectured because i came home late.

I slowly opened my house door fully aware what i'll be getting behind it. "Chm elsa3a?" Said my father when he saw me.

"Asfa adri mt25ra bs knt asalf m3a 7essa w mantbht" i said and then i got a whole long lecture how this isn't an excuse for being late and how i should be more responsible. 

I headed upstairs, so i could change and sleep, nothing new. 

I checked the time and saw the date it was "27-10" i quietly squealed my birthday is 2 hours away i was going to become 18. 

I stayed up waiting till it turned twelve, i know it sounds tacky but i just love seeing whose going to be the first, even though i was really tired. I got plenty of happy birthday's and as usual sara is the first. 

Next morning, i felt pretty excited about today. After doing all the morning normal doings i headed downstairs. 

"Kl3am wnty b5air bnty eljmela" said my mother, i went and gave her a hug. 

"Shraych arygch?" She said and that's one of the reason i love birthday mornings.

My phone rang and it was hessa i remembered that she had the same birthday as i. 

I answered, "ahlaan bl legal" i said and my mum confusingly smiled. 

Hessa laughed "Halla fech happy birthday" she said and i said "happy birthday to you too"

I sat and chatted, my mum gave me the look and i excused myself from hessa telling her i have a special birthday breakfast with my mother and i hung up. 

"7lfai bs" said my mother and just giggled and went to change. 

We went to fudds, one of our favourite breakfast spot. After ordering and settling down. My mother asked "hessa etshabhch w nfs 3eed meladch?" 

I nodded and replied "ana b3d est3'rbt awal madrait bs et3rfen mna 40 shbeh" 

She hummed yeah and said nothing. 

After our breakfast arrived and after i talked about hessa a bit more we left and went back home. 

"Yal5wana" yelled my brother playfully. I stuck my tongue out for him and giggled. 

"Mabasbch m3a hl wayh" he said playfully, "shwy shwy 3ala b39'" said my mother.

"Wain oboi?" I asked, "6l3 mn shwy" replied abdulrahman as he got up from having his breakfast alone. 

"Ee 97 goli 7g hessa happy birthday" he said i looked at him with a raised eye brow. "How did u know it's her birthday?" I asked.

He hesitated with his words and seemed more like nervous. "Umm e-ehya galatly la" he said.  

Mshyt'ha. yeah she probably told him, i thought but i still called her and told her about it. 

"I don't remember telling him my birthday, he may have my number but we don't speak tara bs che r8ma mzhrya 3ndy" she said 

I hummed a thought hum, "he did seem nervous about it, it's as if it slipped out of him i don't know" i said. 

"Where is he now?" She asked, "i don't know he got all weird and left.

"Oh" she said, we kept silent "i'll check this out i'll watch him he knows something that i don't and i hate feeling naive" i said. 

We then hung up because my dad was calling for me. 

I went downstairs and the whole household was there, they all yelled "Suprise!" And i had the surprised birthday girl face and they started singing happy birthday, we ate cake and well i opened presents. 

But i kept my eyes locked on Abdulrahman. he was hiding something.

I'm getting to the bottom of this. 

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I'd like to dedicate this chapter to @Ray49_ and @Nouf201 and a special thank you to everyone that is supporting me! I love you all!

I hope you like this!

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Visions of yesterday's events disturbed my morning. I looked at the time it was 11, and i didn't have a class today. 

I got a text from shaikha, saying that she'll be leaving for university next week, i texted back "uff wa5eran" 

She was online, so she replied, "can you come over now? i have something exciting to tell you" It took me a minute to think and i agreed to come.

I got up and did my morning duties as usual and headed downstairs for breakfast, surprisingly mum was there.

"Elwalda hnee" i said in a happy surprised tone, she kept down her coffee from one hand and newspaper from another and smiled.

I went and kissed her forehead and sat next to her to have breakfast. 

"Yma barou7 bait shaikha al7en" i said while stuffing my mouth with bread and cheese. 

She looked at me once and folded her newspaper, "al7en?" She said with one eyebrow raised.

I hummed yeah and proceeded with eating. She kept quiet which is sometimes a sign of yes but in my case it sounds as a no. 

"Yma barou7 al7en bard 3gb el3'da okay?" I asked again while having a puppy dog face of begging, she sighed and said yes. 

I squealed and kissed her forehead and headed upstairs to get ready.

Let me give you a quick fact what i do when going to shaikha's house.

I don't change my shirt which is pajamas, all i do is change my pants to either black genies or black leggings i never wear anything colourful or light as pants. 

I wore abaya over my outfit and swirled my veil over my head. Took a look at myself in the mirror, took my stuffs and left. 

When i got to her house, i was greeted by her mother that i grew found of throughout my senior year.

I and shaikha's family are now best buddies. Well not 'best' but we're pretty tight now. 

"9ba7 el5air nawrty baitna" she said as we greeted each other with 2 cheek kisses. 

"Wainhi shaikha?" I asked as i inhaled the smell of their morning atmosphere that i have always admired. 

"Shaikha fe 3'rft'ha rou7elha banadekm lain 76aina el3'da" she said, i nodded and headed to her room. 

I wouldn't be meeting Abdulrahman at this time on my way nor her father so i took off my veil. 

I barged into her "ahlaan" i said.

"Way3a fe e5tra3 esma a6g elbab" she said as she was brushing her hair. "Good morning to you too" i sarcastically replied as i sat on her bed. 

She kept the brush down made her hair up in a pony tail and fluffed it. 

"Enzain sm3y" she started as she sat before me. I hummed yeah?

"My mums pregnant." She said and excitement filled her face.

"7lfaii" i was surprised and happy.

She did a small squeal and nodded.

"Anasa bt9eren e5t kbera! ay shahar?" I said all at once.

"I think 3rd madri she was suspicious but she just confirmed yesterday." She said.

"Mabroook elwalda" i congratulated then we sat and chatted about my university life yesterday. 

"79'ch u'll stay in a dorm room and everything" i said.

"Not now i think last year or 2 years gbl ma i finish i think eljam3a hne flbahrain i'll be here mostly" 

She said not looking as happy as she should be.

"A5eh bchof wayhch wayd y3ni" 

I said mockingly.

"Jokes on you yal8rda we have the same face" she replied and well she '89fat eljabha' as they locally say. 

Time passes by quick when you're having fun, we heard a knock on the door, "gada" said a maid. 

I looked at the time, and it was time for both Abdulrahman and her father to arrive, dammit. 

I went downstairs and wore my abaya but left it unbuttoned and kept my veil around my neck, just incase.

I sat next to shaikha and she sat next to her mum who sat in her father's usual place. 

"Mabrook 5alty" i said as i began eating. 

"Galatlach 3yal" she chuckled and added "allah ybark feech 7beebty" 

We kept silent as we were stuffing ourselves with vegetable and sausages macroni.

"Shloun omch?" Her mother asked and it felt awkward, i actually was going to chock. "El7mdella" i stuttered while saying that. 

I heard shaikha giggle at my reaction and her brother entered. 

I gasped and quickly covered my hair, which is of no use because shaikha not only has the same looks but also the same hair as i. 

"Oh hessa 3ndna" he said as he came towards us and drank shaikha's glass of water until it was empty. 

Her face screamed 'what the hell'

I couldn't contain my laughter so i burst it out. "Mama chofee" shaikha said and her mother was already laughing. 

He kept down her glass and went to kiss his mother's forehead.

"Mabtt3'da?"asked his mother. 

"Mbala bs mw al7en" he smiled and headed upstairs.  

"Km 3mra al7en?" I asked 

"It doesn't matter he won't live long anyways" she sarcastically said as if she was planning his death. 

 

I placed my hand on her shoulder and said "c'mon lets go to your room and plan his death" 

Her mother giggled and said "aham shay etn9'fon wrakm" we laughed and headed upstairs.

"Your mum is so cute" i said

"I know i know" she replied.

We sat and chatted again until it was time for me to leave. 

When i got home i remembered that i haven't checked my phone, so i did and i had a msg from fa6ma.

'CALL ME ASAP!'

That's weird.

I entered my house and my mum rushed to me and hugged me tight.

"Shsalfa?" I asked, this was confusing what's wrong with the world. 

"Madraity?" She asked worried and shocked. I raised an eye brow and shook my head.

"Mama d3ay 36ach 3mra" she said.

That was the last thing i remember before collapsing to the ground.

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I froze when he said i love you.

I panicked but i said "ana b3d"

He chuckled knowing he made me blush vigorously. We kept silence then he sighed a happy sigh and said, "yala akahm nadoni t7mli b7alch" i smiled and said "inshalla" we hung up after that.

I started flapping my hands like a fan because the room suddenly became hot, i smiled and happy sighed, then said "allah yshfek"  

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[A year later]

Finally a university student.

I mentally squealed.

Today is my first day as a university student along with m7md. I'm studying architect and m7md is studying law. Shaikha is in ireland studying 6b with her cousin. 9gr and sara are studying business in a different university. 

D3ay's condition is getting worst and worst each day. I haven't left his side throughout summer. He seems strong and like he's holding onto every inch of breath he has when i'm there and when i leave it just collapses onto him. I sighed just remembering his face. 

I remember seeing him smile and it was obvious he was holding his strength, he didn't want to show me that he's weak in any way, even thought you could see how sick he is. When i left i stood outside and remembered i forgot something in and when i entered he was panting and wincing. 

"7beebty bnty elbash mwhndsa" said my mum letting me snap from my flash back as i was going downstairs before i left for university.

I chuckled and went for a morning forehead kiss. I and shaikha decided that for university we'll be wearing shaila's, i wasn't used to it but as the time passes i'm sure i will. 

After i reached university which is like a 30 minutes drive. I took a deep breath and entered, knowing that i will be seeing m7md makes me relieved, however i won't always see him, but hey at least i know someone.

I looked at my schedule and i had creative thinking and history scheduled for me today.

I had creative thinking with m7md so i'm happy i'll be seeing him more often.

I had 5 minutes left till the lecture so i went and grabbed me a seat in the front row, waiting for the lecture to start. 

People started entering then i noticed m7md entering with a girl i wasn't familiar of but they were happily chatting. He was wearing thoub w 3'tra. I haven't seen him for a while didn't change one bit maybe just grew him a beard but it was well shaved into a saksoka. He flashed me a dimpled smile and made a 'not bad' face and gave me a thumbs up on the shaila, i shyly smiled back and the girl sat next to me as it was the only available seat. Her name was Maryam. 

After the class was over 10 minutes early, i looked at my schedule again to check the time of my next lecture and i had history after exactly 10 minutes. 'Dammit' i thought to myself.

 "Ahlan" i heard someone greet beside me i look over and it was m7md, i freaked out because he always does that. 

"Ahlain" i replied with a smile. He introduced me to maryam which happens to be his cousin and told me i'll be having history with her. 

"7elw 3ayl bnstwi rbe3at" i said in my emirati accent."Oh emiratya?" She said and i nodded. 

"7elwa 3laich elshaila" m7md complimented and i smiled. we had an eye contact moment and he excused himself and informed us that he'll be in the cafeteria. 

We headed over to sit, as the lecture is right beside the previous lecture.

We sat at the very end. 

"Enty 7beebt m7md fe amal?" She asked, 'why do i keep being asked the same question repeatedly' i thought to myself. 

I chuckled and replied "la la ana m56oba wainy w wain m7md" she oh-ed and told me how she and him are close cousins more like brothers and sisters, she is the youngest daughter and she has an elder sister but she's married. 

The professor entered, he looked young and i mean late 20's young, he had handsome features and was tall, really tall.

"Elsalam 3alekm" he started as he began shifting his desk which was stuck to the wall. "Wana kl magol lhm latl9gona hni el9gona ly" he said trying to sound humorous. 

We chuckled, we began our lecture by introducing ourselves and saying what major we are in, when it came to me "Hessa Al-B" i said, "shnu t599ch hessa oboi?" He asked, "hndsa" i replied, "m3marya?" He asked again, "haih" i said.

"Oh emiratya?" He asked again, i just nodded because i obviously am. 

"Maybyn 3laich" he said. I gave him the look but he didn't see that. 

I get that a lot, how do people just assume i'm not emiratya just because i don't look like one. I still never get this.

After the lecture was over, my phone rang and it was fatma, d3ay's sister.

I walked with maryam and stood in front of the elevators, which i was very hesitant about entering. 

I'm claustrophobic, which means i have the fear of crowded places and tight, closed places. 

Which this elevator was, so i stood for pretty long until i got the next elevator. I didn't mind i was on the phone.

"Halla blzain halla" said fa6ma

"Halla beech" i replied with a chuckle.

"Ha shloun eljam3a" he asked

"3jeb" i replied.

"Lay mta y3ni?" I heard a faint d3ay voice at the back.

"Uff enzain enzain, hessa b36ech d3ay" she said. 

I waited till the phone was successfully transferred. 

"Alo?" He said and my heart started pounding, his voice was so weak, i didn't want to come back to Bahrain, i didn't want to leave him, but i had too.

"Hi" i said with a soft sweet voice trying not cry, because i always do.

I saw maryam staring at me, and i smiled. 

"Shloun elmhndsa?" He asked while trying hard to catch his breath. 

"El7mdella" i said and my sweet voice slowly started to crack and i could feel a lump in my throat.

"Ent sh7alk elyoum?" I asked trying to get the lump away, but i know my voice sounded like i was crying. 

"Mn a7san maymkn el7mdela" he replied, i know he's feeling pain and is tortured about it but he always had that feature in him where he always wants to show me that he's strong and that a simple cancer will not defeat him. I loved that about him. He smiles through anything. 

"El7mdella" i said, he kept silent and then huffed, "7beebty eldctor ya baklmch b3dain tm?" He whispered through the phone, "tm" i whispered back, we laughed and hung up. 

"7dkm cute hai kan 56ebch?" Asked maryam as we stepped into the elevator after the crowd died and because i was talk on the phone. 

I nodded and i lowered my head down, because i was about to cry. 

"Wee shfech?" She asked lifting my face with her too hands, and pressed G.

I shock my head and tried to swallow that lump i had, so i wouldn't cry. 

"Hessa shfeech?" She sounded really concerned but i didn't like to talk about it. That's when i saw m7md standing right in front of the elevator door. 

I chanted 'no no no no' in my mind, i didn't want him to see me cry. 

"Shfeech hessa?" He said stepping into the elevator with us, and that's where i lost it. 

they closed the elevator and pressed 3, because it is the least visited block. 

"Hessa shfeech?" Asked m7md repeatedly. I wiped my eyes and shook my head, i smiled and said, "nothing nothing" and i pressed G.

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This weekend has been amazing for me and d3ay. yes he moved to dubai at the night of saturday but i spent the whole time with him. He gave me that ring he mentioned that day when shaikha was me.

Funny how i'm engaged now to d3ay, but i'm really happy to be so. 

Went to school on sunday and sat there waiting for everyone to come so i could tell them all the good news. I can't hide my smile, i looked like an idiot just smiling and looking at my ring. 

After everyone was there. I started telling them about everything.

From my day at my grandmothers, until my last day with d3ay.

I told them that he has cancer and my voice cracked but then i smiled. 

"Maychoof shr ajr w 3afya" said sara. Then i smiled and had a happy vibe shown all over my face.

"Wee bsmella yanat" said shaikha

M7md chuckled. 

I shook my head and still had that face of happiness. 

"Hessa shfeech goli" said sara and the boys just stared at me in confusion. 

I let out my hand and showed them my ring. "Shnw thee?!" Said sara

M7md face dropped. 

"En56btyy" shaikha yelled and then covered her mouth and looked around seeing if anyone was staring. 

"En56bty?" She whispered again. 

I nodded and still having that face. 

"Mabrooooook" said sara and got up to hug me, same did shaikha.

"Gaibsh y3ni en56bty 5ala9 mafe amal?" Mocked 9gr i just chuckled. 

"Lma glt chthe thkrtni eb3ziz" said sara. We all said allah yr7ma and the bell rang, i had math with m7md. 

It felt like there's tension between us. 

I kept looking at him but showed no sign of emotion in his face. 

"M7md shfek?" I asked

[m7md's POV] 

I was deep in thought.

"Mafeni ela el3afya" i replied at her.

I know it seemed too obvious in my cold tone but i can't help it. They're engaged and she has slipped right before me. 

She chuckled and i smiled,

"Yba mafeni shy shfeech" i replied with a chuckle to ease that tension.

I could see how happy she is when she talks about him and how happy she is just thinking about him. I knew i shouldn't of thought that i may have a chance because I obviously don't stand a chance with that d3ay guy.

We entered math and i actually payed attention in class even though my mind is scattered. 

"Wh sh9ar fldnya m7md eswi zain?" Said hessa mockingly, i chuckled and said "3b8ry hne sh3balch" 

The class went on with laughter and happiness just me and her, but then there's that ring acting as a long brick wall between us, separating me and her.

After that day i made sure that i vanish every bit of feeling i had for her. 

[Shaikha's POV]

School was over, i'm still not over the fact she's engaged oh my god.

My brother arrived late today, i was pissed but i brushed the anger away because i was more agar to tell him about hessa than argue.

"Way3a shla mt25r?"i started, i know i just said i won't argue but it had to be said, "way3a fe blees m3a hlwayh za7ma shnw a6eer?" He replied.

"Ee 97 Mageltlak" i started, hmm was his reply yaz3m m39b w prestige, "Hessa en56bt" i said.

We stopped at a red light, he looked at me "shnw?" Was his reply. 

He looked extremely surprised and shocked. "En-56-bt" i rephrased.

"A3rf shglti bs mn w mta w shloun" he asked. "Well mn? Her best friend mn elmdrsa esma D3ay Al-H w 56bha mn bdayt elf9l w ams wafgt" 

I said. It turned into a green light and we moved.

"Mabrook tstahl 3ad t3zmna el3rs maw9eech" he said, i smiled and said okay. 

"Ela bagolch 36eni r8mha" he asked. I lifted an eyebrow. "Laish?" I asked back. "Al7en chm mra yat baitna 5ala9 swaina rab3" he answered but i wasn't convinced, "bas2lha gbl ymkn 56ebha mayr9'a" i chuckled.

"Laa 7lfai bs" he said mockingly.

I chuckled again and texted hessa about this. 

[Hessa's POV]

I sat on my bed, began doing all the loads of homework i had. Gosh they were many. why does school love to torture us like this.

My phone buzzed and it was shaikha asking if her brother could have my number, that's odd why does he want my number. 

I agreed because i'm one curious cat and because i grew found of him. It isn't like he's some stranger anymore. 

I kept my phone down and proceeded with my homework then a random emirati number called.

I knew it was d3ay and i quickly grabbed my phone and answered.

"Halla blzaain" he started.

"Halla feek" i replied.

"Sh7al 56ebty elyoum?" He asked, i felt my face heat up.

"eb5air shloun 3n el56eb" i replied, feeling like what i just said was tacky, he chuckled and said "byd5l chemo b3d shwy babdi el3laj" 

My face dropped and i replied with a cracked voice "enshala yarab tshfa jreeb"  

"Ameen" and we kept silence. 

"7beebty shfech?" He asked. 

My heart skipped a beat when he called me that i wasn't used to him calling me that. 

I chuckled and said "mafeni shay bs 5ayfa" I know this is probably the stupidest thing i said because, i should be strong i'm the one beside him i'm suppose to be supporting him, not worrying like this.

"Latgolen chthe koni gwya, 3shani chofy ana ely feni elmr9' w ana mafro9' a5af bs el7mdella hai ktbt allah w enshala rby byshfeni bs ybelna 9br" he said.

I teared but happy tears, he's right.

He's always right, i should be strong. I should be beside him and as time passes he'll be healed bthn allah i know that.

I kept silence, "hey" he said, i just hmm-ed a 'yeah?' 

"A7bch" he said. 

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19

I woke up the next day with a major memory loss, you know that moment when you try to remember something that has happened but remember nothing but the bad things. Yeah.

I somehow know that yesterday started off great, but then..

I sighed, I thought to myself, 

'why am i awake again?'

I looked at the time and it was 11.

I shrugged because i had the worst headache and seeing light wasn't making me feel any better.

I got up and headed off to do my morning duties, took longer in my bath this morning i did nothing but sit there in the warm water and remember how much i made a fool out of myself in front of my cousins. 

I decided staying here will do me no good but give me wrinkled finger tips. I blow dried my hair and it got all poofy and wavy like hermione's hair from harry potter and i liked it. 

I wore an over sized grey t-shirt and black leggings. I made my hair up in a high pony tail and went downstairs. 

My mum was sitting downstairs, and i went and kissed her forehead, i sat next to her and laid my head on her lap. She stroked my head and asked "shtben etswen elyoum?" 

I got up and looked at her.

I was confused, i looked at her for a moment then i told her "take me to d3ay" 

She sighed "a5 mnch enzain gomi bdli" i think i haven't smiled like this ever in my life. I showered her with my squeals and headed quickly to change. 

I wore as quick as i can and just topped it with abaya which has been my style ever since i arrived here in Bahrain. 

When i came down, my mother was still sitting down where i last saw her. "Mama?" I gestured to me like hello why aren't you done. 

"Mashalla amda?" She chuckled and got up. 

After 30 minutes or more she got down. "Yma tara e7na ray7en mstashfa" i said. 

She gave me the look and i had a 'what?' Face. 

We both left straight towards the hospital. We kind of walk jogged to his room, it was really funny. 

I'm glad that me and my mother have settled our issues together.

We reached to his room and my heart was pounding, i didn't know what to expect behind that door.

[D3ay's POV]

I was resting my eyes, i wasn't sleeping. I heard a knock, but i didn't open my eyes.

I heard hessa's voice. My heart started racing, but i kept my eyes closed i didn't want to see her face, i know she heard about my sickness.

"Naym?" I heard her whisper.

"Ee 9arla fatra" i heard my mother whisper back. 

"Shnw bl9'b6 feh?" I heard hessa's mother ask.

My mother sighed and whispered "sara6an elr2a twa awl phase" her voice cracked i know she's probably crying again. 

I started coughing uncontrollably,

I heard them all rushing towards me, i felt a hand resting on mine.

Without looking at who it was i pulled my hand away. 

"D3ay mama sht7s?" Asked my mother. My coughing stopped. 

"Ana b5a-" i said but then my coughing started again. 

"Nadw elmmr9'a" yelled hessa

I looked at her and i don't know why i had an angry face. I didn't want her to see me like this. I looked weak and vulnerable. 

The nurse came and said it's normal for lung cancer patient to cough like this, it will stop after a moment.

And it did moments later i stopped coughing and i laid back on my bed.

I look at hessa that was sitting on a chair on my right.

She was tearing that hurts me more than what i have. I smiled at her and she smiled back. My mother and hers were talking and didn't pay attention to us. 

She came closer next to me and whispered "hi" i whispered back "ahlan bl zain" she shyly chuckled. 

But then her face just dropped again. I'm sure her depression is back. I moved my hand towards her indicating i wanted her to hold my hand, she did, and i just kept rubbing my thumbs onto hers and staring at her eyes. 

Then she whispered, "mwaf8a" 

I looked at her confused. 

"Yma mwaf8a" she said again. 

I wasn't sure what she meant. 

Her mother said "mt2kda?" 

I looked at hessa and she nodded. 

"L79'a l79'a shsalfa" i finally spoke.

"In marrying you" hessa replied.

[Hessa's POV]

I thought this through, everyday and every moment that passes when i'm with him, since day one made me know that i have been always in love with him, it just took me 12 years to realise it.

Seeing him like this made me realise that i wanted to always be beside him. I know he can make it through this, and i will help him through it. 

My mother and his started chanting mabrook and i looked at him he was fully shocked and i made my hand into a pinky promise, and whispered "together?" he smiled a dimpled smile chuckled and whispered back doing the same "forever". 

This has been what we do whenever any of us is either sad or whenever we are being parted.

I now know that this isn't some teenage love, i actually am truly madly in love with him. I always have, and forever will. 

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18

Back to my normal life.

The life that i'm thankful to have but still never really enjoyed.

Whenever i switch with shaikha.

It just sort of opens up a whole new life experience for me. 

Ever since my childhood, all my mother and father did was shower me with whatever i wanted just to hush me up. 

I sighed as i was in the car on my way back home.  

Most of my old friends admired my life, because i got everything i wanted, and i got to do what ever i wanted, but they really don't know. 

Yeah el7mdellah i got everything but that isn't happiness. I want a father that loves, a mother that cares and not just items. 

When i got sick, there was nurses hired to make sure i was cured. 

When i was sad, my nanny would be there to comfort me.

When i was depressed, nothing but my bedrooms four walls were there for me. 

D3ay was there for me most if the times, but he isn't always around me at home. 

But never my father and never my mother.

All i had with my mother was a friendly understanding of 'if you have a problem come to me' which i never do. 

But they're my parents and i have nothing to do about it, but accept the fact.

I just can't believe she hasn't told me that she used to work as doctor. 

Now what i know that she has her own business and that's basically how she met dad. I never knew she was a doctor. 

I'm just curious though to how did she have a hand in their child death.

For now all i'll care about this weekend is d3ay. I admit, i haven't been talking to him this week because of everything. 

I reached home and headed up stairs.I texted him saying i'll be there tomorrow afternoon. 

I had lunch upstairs i didn't feel like going down. Those negative thoughts are giving me depression vibes.

I heard a knock on my door and before i gave permission my mother entered. 

"Mama a7en bnrou7 bait ydtch bdli" she said and left.

"Okaay" i whispered to myself.

Lately she has been ignoring me far more than usual. Basically ignoring so i wouldn't ask any further questions.

I had a feeling of wanting to cry, i didn't like this. Sometimes i have this feeling where all i want to do is hug my mother and nothing but that, but she's just never there. Sometimes i want to hire someone to kidnap me just so i could get them to car.

I took a deep sigh and got up to change. It's ironic how people portrait rich people as happy. 

Well, yeah most of them are. When they have the people they care about surrounding them with lobe and affection, But not me.

'El7mdellah 3ala kl 7al' i thought

I got ready and headed downstairs.

My mother left just as i did, so we both left together without saying a single word. 

We reached my grandmothers house and it isn't as big as i imagined but it looks homey. 

we entered and we were greeted by 5 kids playing together in the hallway. 

I could see grandma sitting at the end of that hall. The house isn't as big in the inside too. 

We went straight towards the living room and greeted them all of kisses and then sat. 

I saw mona there. She gave me glances as i think she was there at noof's birthday. Damn she saw me and m7md i'm sure. 

We sat and talked about dubai and all then mona came up to me and asked me to join them in her room.

Her room? 

I didn't know she lived here. 

I entered with her and my other cousins greeted me they were 3 girls, mona, her sister reem, and another cousin aisha. 

"Ahlan sharaftena" said reem. 

I smiled at them i felt awkward because i barely knew them, but i know that i have to make friends around here i'm going to be seeing them more often. 

Their room is two beds and two closets, a small tv in the middle of those two closets and an arm chair. 

It's small, they all sat in on the beds so i did too. 

"Shloun elmdrsa m3ach?" Asked reem

"El7mdellah okay" i replied.

"Ee esh3ad chfty rb3ha mn" said mona. 

"La mn?" Asked reem to me. 

"M7md w 9gr" she replied.

It's like i'm being gossiped on, the only thing is that i was there.

"7lfai oh my god" exclaimed reem.

"Ee t3ali 9ij enty m56oba" asked reem. 

"T8reban ll7en matmt el56ba" i replied.

"L79'a l79'a shloun enty mw m3a m7md" asked mona.

Shit. 

Damn u sara!

"L-La" i replied while stuttering. 

"Oh" she looked at me suspiciously. 

Great now god knows what she's thinking of.

"Enty knty m3a 3ziz allah yr7ma 97?" I asked to cut the tension. 

"3ziz mat?!" Asked reem in shock.

"Bwww 9arla mda al7en" replied mona. 

What. The. Hell. 

They are talking about him like he's some trash. 

I couldn't help but look at her in disgust. How can she talk like that.

I looked at aisha she wasn't saying anything but listening and she had the same expression as i did to mona, we watched her as she laughed. "Wee shfeekm" she said while still laughing the night away. 

"Enzain al7en nrj3 7g mw9'oo3 el56eb, shsma?" Asked reem.

Gosh elLgafa. 

"D3ay" i replied 3ala wzn elso2al.

"7beebch y3ni ohwa?" She asked again. "La la rb3 mn el6fola" i replied. "Oh alay cute" she said.

I just nodded. They started chatting about m7md and 9gr like they were the most important things in the world. 

"Shla et3eshon ehnee?" I asked out of the blue.

They all looked at me and reem answered, "long story shorty parents are divorced, my father is married his wife doesn't like us and well we couldn't love with mother because her husband is a stranger to us, so we're here."

"Oh i'm sorry i shouldn't of asked" i replied, i could see their faces looked a bit sad at that memory. 

"La 3ady shd3wa" replied reem.

I got a text from d3ay's sister.

'Tara d3ay bynt8l mstashfa fe dbai' 

What the actual..

I texted back ignoring their chats.  

'What?' 

She replied after a minute.

'You should visit tomorrow l2na sunday he's going back' 

'Why is he going to another hospital, i thought he was fine' i replied to her text. I was starting to get anxiety because i was worried. 

She replied back 'wait i'll call you'

I was going to deny but she called. 

"Ast2thnkm dgeega" i excused myself and left. 

I answered, "ha whats wrong?" I asked, "umm what exactly?" She replied. 

"Mw 7ztch laish bero7 mstashfa thanya fe shy?" I asked wanting no beating around the bush.

"I can't say, i mean i don't know how to say it" she replied, i started to panic, my heart beats were raising every beat stronger than the other.

"Wh-What do you mean?" I said.

"Promise me you won't freak out" she made me promise, "okay listen remember his smoking issue-" she started, i just hummed yeah. 

"Well let us just say it's worst than you think" she was hiding something i know it. 

"Fa6ma go straight to the point ma7b chthe just tell me" i begged her to tell me, i wanted to know badly what was wrong. 

She sighed and went silent for a moment, "ma3rf shloun agolch hessa" she went silent again and i was slowly running out of patience. 

"Fa6ma i'll kill you enzain" i threatened her.

"D3ay fe cancer" she finally said.

Her words rung in my head.

Echoed a thousand times.

My heart was pounding furiously like i was running in some marathon, somehow it feels like i expected this would be the issue but denied it several time in my mind just like i did to my feeling towards him, and just as i finally admitted that i love him. I'll admit now that d3ay is in fact extremely ill and may or may not live.

Negative thoughts attacked my mind as i stood there completely at shock. I heard her call my name repeatedly in the phone but i couldn't speak, my tongue was tied and i felt light headed. A tear fell from my eyes but i wiped them quick and told her that i'll be fine. 

We hung up, and i went back to the room. 

"Hessa shfeech?" Rushed reem towards me and supported back to sit on the bed. 

I smiled and tears streamed down my face. That's where i couldn't help but cry hard. I couldn't breath from crying. All of them were in deep shock, reem was the first to take me in for a hug of comfort. I saw mona rushing outside, and moments later my mother burst in. 

She pushed reem away from me and for the first time, my mother hugged me like never before. It felt warm, and my river of tears almost stopped flowing. I smelled her perfume, as she rubbed circles on my back to comfort me. 

I stopped crying and i lightly pushed my mother away from me, it was more like 'bdon ma7s', i actually was shocked that i did that. 

I sighed and wiped my tears,

She looked right into my eyes and told me we're leaving. 

In the car, i was thinking about what just happened, i'm surprised that i haven't passed out.

"Fa6ma galatlch?" Asked my mother.

"You knew?" I replied with another question. 

"Knt bagolch bs makan elwgt mnasb" she replied.

I shrugged and looked at the time,

"Fe wgt 5l nrou7 lah" i said,

"La chofy 7altch allah y3lm shbtswen" she replied.

"Take me to him!" I ordered. 

She looked at me with her eye brows coming close together indicating she didn't like my tone, "no" was all she said. 

It was 6pm why not, the hospital is one turn away, and yet she doesn't want me to see him now.

We reached home and i locked myself in my room, prayed and then cried myself to sleep. 

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