I left, prayed and headed downstairs for breakfast. I was greeted by my mother, father and moments later my brother. We had a morning chit chat and then my dad said, "enzain Abdulrahman bnrou7 3gb shwy 7g eldfan"
My brother looked at me and back at my father and just nodded.
I wanted to ask them about the reason for his death, i was unsure if i should but i did anyways, i turned to my dad and asked "yba shlon twafa?"
Silence filled the fresh coffee filled air as they all faced me, then my father finally spoke, "7adth sr3a."
I was shocked even tho it was a possibility in how 3ziz might die. I have warned him several times. He's a year older than me because he failed a year so he's 18 now, but i have warned him, he didn't listen, now he's gone.
"Oh" was all i could say.
I ate a bit and then got up
and headed upstairs.
I started re-evaluating my life.
How it was and how it might be.
Many many thoughts invaded my inner peace. I had nothing to do but just lay there and let it devour me away.
[Abdulrahman's POV]
I watched my sister as she got up and left. My heart ached as i saw the pain in her face grow after knowing how he died.
Usually when i had the idea that my sister might love someone i'll grow furious but this was different. He was there for her and basically pulled her out of a very dark, empty and deep well.
He maybe a smoker and like they say "9ay3" but that didnt matter because when they're together he isn't that 9ay3. He's 3ziz and nothing but that. He made my sister happy and i was well aware of that.
I excused myself and went to my room so i could change to thoub for the dfan.
It isn't a normal thing for me, to go to a burial, this was my first and as weird as it sounds yes it is my first. The only death i experienced was my grandfather and i was about 4 so i wasn't taken to it.
I didn't even care because i was a child and all i wanted was to play with the other kids.
Weeks after my grandfather died, my parents had an argument. It was so intense that my mother left us and never came back. I hated every inch of her.
I even cringe at the thought, that she left us for money. She preferred wealth and power over love and family. I was well aware of everything back then, they just thought i was a child and that i didn't understand anything yet, but i did. I knew everything back then.
Suddenly pictures of hessa flooded through my mind as i changed my clothes. My mother had her. I laughed at that thought, "No wonder she switched with shaikha" i said and just hh-ed.
I didn't care no matter how much they looked alike i was still very happy to finally meet her and i wanted to tell my father about it. He needed to know.
[Hessa's POV]
Today was my second week in this school, and d3ay had to stay at the hospital a little longer. That actually worries me because i was told they needed to do more testing and that they are suspicious about something, i know deep down that this isn't going to end well.
I left to school.
As i was entering i saw 9gr entering at the same time with me. He seemed sad, but why wouldn't he as i remember last week, they're pretty close. I wouldn't blame him.
Shaikha didn't come, i think it has to do with the 5alaf. So it's okay. Lunch time was a bit odd and for the first time i actually feel awkward sitting around them.
"Gosh this is so weird." sara announced. M7md chuckled.
9gr was emotionless.
"Mb zain chthe" i finally spoke.
They all looked at me. I started panicking i didn't know what to say.
"Latd5lain" said 9gr with a serious face and a more like an angry look. It's like i didn't know what i was saying. Like i am not meant to be around them.
I just looked at him, in total shock.
"9gr!" Yelled m7md in defence.
He hh-ed and got up. I stood up and asked him to stop but he just left.
"5le he'll be fine" said m7md.
I sat back. This was all new to me, i mean i have known people with grandparents dying, uncles and aunts but never have i witnessed a friends death. I didn't know how to react in those situations. Not to mention 9gr's sudden angry issue's towards me.
We all just kept quiet i sat next to sara facing m7md. Neither of us went after him. It just felt wrong, i think we all should go after him and comfort him but i guess men rules are different. I really didn't care about his anger towards me it doesn't matter i fully understand why.
"Lat7aten" said m7md again.
I looked at him and nodded.
I do remember him telling me he's good at reading body language, i didn't know he was that good.
It has been at least 5 minutes since 9gr left. We sat and talked about 3ziz and how he was. I understood many things about him and why shaikha and 9gr cared that much, and the fact that he's shaikha's cousin i didn't see that coming.
I'm actually surprised he's like the soul of this group. I wasn't going to let that destroy the happiness they had.
I wanted to make things better we may have lost him but that doesn't mean we have to be this depressed over it. We should keep him alive by being who we were when he was around.
[M7md's POV]
My father was a drunkard, he used to beat my mother most of the nights. He divorced my mother then married another woman and left my mother and i when i was only 10 to rot alone, so we stayed at my uncles place, and he took care of us, provided us with everything. He is married and had a daughter right before his wife passed away while giving birth to her. Her name was Noora. She's a year younger than me.
I grew up having no father around me. I was the only man that protected my mother. I grew up to never cry. No matter how sad a situation is i couldn't cry. I became stone hearted when it came to emotions.
However, I always look at the bright side of things and push away the negative thoughts that's something i also grew up to do. If i had negative thoughts my mother wouldn't be as happy as she is now.
9gr has all the right to be angry and sad.
He keeps telling me that it's his fault because he dared him to be at his maylas in less than 5 minutes. I knew this would happen. He didn't.
Well i need not proceed.
Yet it wasn't necessary to say that to hessa, she done nothing wrong.
I sat there watching hessa, worry about him as i repeatedly kept asking her to calm down. I love how she's worrying even though he basically just said a rude thing to her. Then we started talking about 3ziz again, and bringing back the memories.
All she did was smile. She had the most beautiful smile ever. She may look like shaikha and it is weird for me to say it, but i think that they have totally different smiles.
Call me crazy but i like her in someway, but then again i barely know her, so it is hard for me to tell yet.
I kept staring at her, just watched her smile and heard her beautiful laugh and how her hair fell on her face and i noticed sara giving me glances indicating me to stop staring and that i look weird. So i decided i'll go and check on 9gr.
"Wain?" Asked hessa.
Okay my heart skipped a beat when she asked me that. I took a deep breath to get that feeling away.
I didn't want to like her, i made an oath that i will not fall in love. Especially after what happened to my mother. I may be different than my father but i still didn't want to.
"barou7 7g 9gr" i gave her a smile and left.
I knew exactly where to find him.
It has been our grouping spot ever since middle school.
The school mini garden, right next to the kindergarden playground
So i went for him and there he was. Sitting on the grassy ground with his legs crossed and looking at kids from primary grade playing.
I sat next to him and spoke not a single word.
"Tt'thkr lma kna 93'ar lma kna kla nt'hawsh wgt ma nl3b kra?" He started still staring at the kids.
I chuckled and said "ayam ya5oi"
He chuckled aswell and then stopped. He looked at me and said, "laish t7daita?"
I kept quiet i didn't know what words to say, he has been blaming himself the whole time.
He looked back at the kids and watched them fight like we did.
"89'a2 w 8dr, allah katb mangdr en3'yr shy w kl shy lah 7kma mn rbk" i said as i watched the kids aswell.
"Sh7kmta bl9'b6 laish ana ely gelt'ha laish mw ent laish mw a7d thani laish ana," i looked at him he was looking at the ground deep in thought i could only imagine what sort of thought those were.
"En6r w btfhm brou7k" thats when i got up. "Yala goom 5nrd mw zain el7zn 3l mayt" i told him as i reached for his hand indicating i wanted him to stand up.
He smiled and got up. We headed back to the cafeteria, we watched as the girls were talking and giggling.
we sat with them and i asked "shttklmon 3n 9'7km wa9l lai bara3"
"Geltlha 3n lma kna bnrou7 fog 9alat elgym w lma t7nglt 3al drai jdam klmn" she started laughing as if it just happened a while ago.
"Enzain bs my9'7k" i said trying to hide a smile.
Then 9gr laughed and so did hessa. It wasn't my fault i didn't know there was step, so i fell face first.
"Bs bs may9'7k 5ala9 msken" said sara i gave her a fake smile and said "7lfai bs"
I looked away due to this embarrassing memory that had to be brought up.
We went in silence, and we all were staring blankly at the table all of us deep in thoughts. I was myself ,and i had but of the slightest idea what was going in my mind.
"Asf" i heard 9gr say so I lifted my head to face him. He was looking at hessa.
I turned to look at hessa, she was shocked in an amazed form, unsure how to put it in the right expression.
"Makan g9di a39b 3laich asf" he apologised. I looked back at hessa,
she was smiling and said
"la 3ady i understand."
We finally ended this school day, it went well. More than i expected.
We grew found of hessa, we accept her as part of this little gang. We don't just easily like someone but she's different.
She left, and so did 9gr leaving me with sara. Well sara to be honest is hot, i have to admit. Last year was chaos for her because of all the boys that wanted her and all her problems with her ex-boyfriend but she's okay now. I myself i found her very attractive and was one of the boys but never did i say it to her face. It just felt wrong thinking it to start with.
"Well well well" she began.
"Wee shfeech?" I asked.
"You like hessa don't you?" She claimed.
"La shd5l twni a3rfha shd3wa"
I replied.
"Don't chft shloun et6al3ha i know those hungry eyes when i see it"
She claimed again.
Wow hungry eyes?
Okay i may have been looking at her far more than i should be, but i was raised well enough to not look at a women as food or even as a source of time wasters.
"Sara shd5l hungry eyes al7en" was all i could say.
"Don't play games i know that look, i've seen it a thousand times" she claimed again.
"Assuming things and being sure are totally different things, w et3rfeni zain ana mafkr ebhl ashya" i replied, she was starting to get on my nerves, heck why was i even still here, where is that driver.
"I'm just stating a point of view chill"
She said while giggling.
"Whatever" i said without even looking at her just blankly staring at the packed roads full of parents and drivers here for the same reason.
"M7md!" i heard a squeaky voice call for me. What the heck.
I turned around to see lulwa a short, partially chubby, tanned skinned, long curly black haired girl rushing towards me.
I sighed and sara laughed.
"M7md shlounak?" She asked with a huge smile on her face.
Great just perfect.
"El7mdela" i coldly said. I don't know why am i always like that when i'm not found of someone i just end up being cold. I'm actually surprised that i'm doing well with hessa around.
Her smile is slowly fading i didn't like to make someone sad so i asked "5air yba amri?" With a smile on my face. She's a junior, and if i wasn't mistaken i think i heard someone tell me she liked me, but i didn't jump into conclusions.
I tried to keep the conversation formal. It was a bit hard finding she's one excited girl. She talked to me about that they're planning a surprise birthday on thursday for one of her friends in this school and that she wanted me and the gang to be there.
I looked at sara and back at her. I thought about this thing going on now the whole 3ziz thing. I came to a conclusion that we need to lighten up a bit so i agreed.
I and Noora reached home and greeted my mother. My uncle was there as well so i greeted him too.
"M7md yba t3al eg3d bklmk bmw9'o3 dgeega." Ordered my uncle. I could see my mother happy about whatever he was going to say.
"Ent al7en a5r sna mdrsa, w ana w omk 8rrna en2mn lk sh3'l fe shrkty" he said.
What just..
I looked at my mother and she waited for my reaction to change to excitement and happiness but it didn't.
I didn't want to do business. I wanted to be a lawyer, i want to defend those who need defending. Like when my mother needed it but none was given.
"Wayhk maybshr bl5air" said my uncle.
"Bdon ehana 3mi bs ana 7ab adrs 78oo8" i replied.
My mother was aware of that.
Right?
I looked at my mother she wasn't pleased. I don't like it when she's sad.
Especially that i caused that.
"Hathi 8rark w a7trma w shrkty mfto7a lk mta b3'ait." He gave me a smile, i smiled back kissed my mother's forhead and his. Excused myself and went to change for 5alaf 3ziz.
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