I'm glad it's friday i can go and see him again, but the fact he smokes and isn't telling me or anyone wait no his mother and family probably knows, but why didn't he tell me.
It is long enough for his heart and lungs to be this bad..
When he becomes better I'm killing him..
i couldnt stop thinking about whether i acctually love him or it's teenage love, i'm not sure.
Besides i'm too young to get married.
I'm like almost 17 this is crazy.
I shrugged at the thought of getting married. I'm not against it in any way, but i'm against the getting married at a young age. I think we have lots of potentials to be in a commitment consisting of children and a husband.
It's 8 am, so i just got up and prayed.
I went downstairs to have something to eat, i ate alone. mum and dad weren't here. I sarcastically mentally laughed because that's so typical of them.
I'm thankful of all that we have the money, the house and this life, but what's the point of all that if we can't for once actually be a normal family with normal breakfast and normal family time.
My phone vibrated on the dining table, indicating i have a msg.
It was duaij's sister
'COME QUICK'
I froze, i had the spoon in my mouth and i just froze. I swallowed my food and called her.
It kept ringing but no answer, i started panicking.
I called 3 times i left it till it told me that there isn't any answer.
I mentally started yelling shit.
I can't just go right now.
And i can't just go we aren't living the american life style of hey let me just go mum won't mind. Yes maybe i'm allowed to go out with d3ay or talk to him but that's strictly friendship and well a mother approval.
I tried calming my self down,
But just started getting anxiety inside. It hurts more like my heart is being squeezed and like my energy is being drained, it hurts. So bad.
I texted her 'i can't what's going on you're freaking me out here.'
Several minutes passed it feels like ages until she actually called.
I kept quiet i just wanted her to get straight to business.
"Hello?" She quietly said.
"Shsalfa fa6ma 5r3teni?" I calmly asked.
"D3ay gam" she said quietly.
I'm going to just predict she's in the balcony trying not to sound like she's talking to me.
Lots of mixed emotions right now crying, happiness and anxiety, this is like war inside of me.
"El7mdellaaaa how, what happened exactly" i replied with a happy tone.
"Enty t3ali awal" she sarcastically said.
"My mum isn't here i can't just go"
I said.
"Uff enzain listen, we came at 8 am 5brch i dissed university on thursday for this idiot, and came here 3ala awal 6yara"
I was basically giggling because she's one funny creature. It was weird because that's when i officially woke up.
"Shfech my9'7k, elmhm yena ohwa kan naym w 3l 8:30 he moved!"
I had that huge smile of excitement on my face.
"And a few moments later he just started murmuring stuffs"
"What did he say?" I asked.
"Madri it sounded like moaning and then he just said yo3an"
What the actual.. That's where i just lost it and started laughing hysterically. I really don't know what i expected.
"Oh my god he didn't" and i just kept laughing.
"I know what the heck like you're in a life or death situation all you thought about was your bell-"
She went silent.
"What wrong?" I asked while giggling.
"I have to go mum wants me please do come quick ha" she said giggling.
"Enshallah Offcourse i'll come"
I said.
"Okay bye bye" she said playfully.
"Bye bye 7beebty" and we hung up.
That's a mood changer.
I quickly went ahead and texted shaikha about what happened yesterday, i almost forgot about her.
Shaikha: "omg all this happened yesterday and i have no idea?"
Me: "yeah it was a dramatic day"
Shaikha: "so are you going today?"
Me: "i'm killing so yeah offcourse i am"
Shaikha: "haha okay just remember to keep it clean we don't want to see you on sunday with blood on your hair"
Me: "no it's okay i'm a professional murderer don't worry."
Shaikha: "okay once your back tell me i have something important to tell u it's not good news"
Me: "what is it tell me now"
Shaikha: "no no later love better i don't want to ruin a perfect start of a day right now"
She's starting to grow into me, it feels like i know her for really long Now and we only just met a few days ago. However, this so called bad news is making me curious. What could possibly go wrong now?
My mum came at 12, about time.
I went and greeted her, she was on her phone so she ignored me and went upstairs.
I couldn't contain myself so i followed her and waited until she was done.
"Mama fatma called galat d3ay gam."
"Haih adri et9lt omha feni galat ttryana" she said.
"Oh so abdl?" I asked.
"Haih haih bsr3a" she said as she fixed her makeup.
I rushed to my room and got ready i just rushed everything, didn't really care if i looked pleasing and to top it all of i was wearing my pjay's under my abaya i just brushed my hair and made my makeup simple.
And i left my mum was waiting downstairs and when she saw me she just got up and left.
I was like a child going to disney land, i'm so excited to see him i have no idea why am feeling like this, i know it's love but i can't help but deny it.
On our way i had this weird thought so i asked my mother.
"Mum laish tbeni atzwj d3ay?"
"Laish la2?" She answered
"Let me rephrase that, why are u pushing me to do so?" She kept quiet.
"I mean me and him aren't even engaged and you wanted me to go and have dinner with him don't you think it's a bit wrong?" I asked.
"But u agreed? So i'm not alone in this." She smiled.
"True but only because you insisted. So why?" I asked again.
"You're old enough to know this, he happens to be the only heir to their business well not the only but the most eligible one and you know his father is a big petrol CEO back in Dubai, so when u marry him your father will gain in his company by joining with d3ay's father company. " She explained.
"Wait hold on so are you telling me i'm your free ticket to extra cash?"
I know that sounds harsh, but i had the right.
"7asbi 3ala elsanch hessa."
She didn't even take one glance at me.
"I'm sorry but mum i don't want to be a daughter with benefits."
"Save that for later we're here."
She said as the driver stopped infront of the hospital gates.
"No." I said sitting and locking my eyes straight without looking at her.
I felt disgusted and used.
"Hessa nzli" she ordered.
I kept quiet.
She sighed and said,
"Hessa he loves you and is expecting you right now, do that for him not me. You have the right to hate me now but don't hate him he has no business in this."
I looked at her and left the car.
She's right, it may have sounded like i'm being used but after all this i'm not forced to marry a man that i don't even know. Let's be rational here, i know d3ay ever since i've been in kindergarden he's like my childhood buddy, but i'm not completely agreeing yet, i don't want to be selfish as well, my dad's company is falling down and this is important for him.
We reached his room and entered.
There he was. Laying there. Staring at me. My heart is beating really fast it feels like it will jump out. I smiled.
"Ahlaaan chan ma yetaw" said fatima trying to sound bahraini.
I laughed and just said "don't."
saw d3ay smiling.
Oh my god, this is the first time i notice how beautiful it is.
We sat down and started chatting my mum was asking about hows d3ay and all. Then she got up and said "barou7 ayeb shy nakla"
I stood and said "ana barou7 3nch"
D3ay suddenly said with a smile "no stay."
My heart sank, i just froze and sat back. I could hear fatima giggling and then she just went with my mum.
It feels so awkward sitting here.
Then his mum broke the tension "Shlounch hessa?"
"Umm el7mdellah" i said smiling.
She replied with el7mdellah.
There was a knock on the door and the doc entered.
"Elsalam shlounk d3ay?" He asked.
"El7mdellah" he replied with his sleepy deep voice.
That i suddenly find attractive.
Ok hessa ok. I smiled at the thought that he's okay.
"Hmm zain zain el7mdella" then he told him about his condition and that he should quit smoking.
That's where his face expressions dropped and he looked at me and nodded.
"W ybelk enshala chm youm lain nt2kd ena mafek shy w enshala 5air"
He just kept nodding.
Then the doctor asked his mother he wanted to talk ocher about something to do with d3ay's health issues and other hospital things.
So that leaves me and d3ay in one room.
Time for murder.
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